tuessssdaayyyy
i should stop myself from getting lost in college...
urghh..it's quite embarrasing!
and today...it was no exception.
i got lost..1st thing in the morning.
i'm pretty sure i've well read the timetable but..urghh!
then i got lost again at the evening..with my friend..
poor her, being lost after following me.
well..we supposed to be at dkf10 but i said it was at dkk10..
and when we entered the hall..."hey...this is aint our place!"
oh shoooottttt...!
i should know how to stop it!!
and i also should stop myself from eating so many things.
i got dozens of foods as storage n i always find myself eating something while doing jobs...
(yeah..i'm eating now)
urghh..i should reduce my weight.
and apart from that..
i think my college's life has started..
the tutorials...coursework...bla bla bla....urgh!
i know i should reduce my internet time..
and that i should upgrade my study qualities..
but....but maybe later, ok?
ehehee....
Labels: 2nd sem
eco fabulous
it has been a great public holiday to me..
no classes...no lectures..
hehe..me gusta!!
so today..
there has been no shopping..
no movies...
no sleeping..
and no no no!!
but no worries..i'm not bored (at least not yet)
my housemates n i went to the lake n enjoy the green..
it's all about the wild..
we decided to inhale some different air..
the one which is fresher..greener..wilder...and sweeter maybe?
hrmmm..i'm not really good at expressing the view
but the truth is...it was great!
i've been there before..to shoot for some scene required in biology's presentation
and i knew i would miss the place sooner or later..
and here i am today...at the same place...with the same shirt
oh god..why am i wearing the same shirt!??
urghh..
nevermind...no one would notice it. (yeah right)
and yes...it's fogging here in puncak alam
the air is very fresh n u'll be falling inlove at first sight...
and these are the pictures during my 1st time being there..
with my classmates of course..
it's located just behind the campus..
but i'm being too lazy to be there..teheee!
till then..annyeong!
Labels: 2nd sem, holiday, uitm
let it be
i mean..
you can do anything u want..as if it would shake me off
you can look into my eyes...stare at me..as if i wouldnt notice it
you can say it out loud...scream and shout it out...as if i would care about it.
you can tease me...make fun of me...as if i would do the same thing to you
you can like me..love me..have crush on me…as if i would be your girl
just can do anything you want...coz i dont have the power to stop you from doing so
i'm going nowhere..
i dont even give a damn care of every action that you take
but please dont blame me for it..
and dont say that i'm being an arrogant girl
it happens coz u force me to be one.
i've already made it clear..
i dont need a man to be my partner at the moment
i dont need someone who could buy me an ice cream when i'm down
i dont need someone for me to rely on as if family isnt good enough for me
i dont need someone to support me as if i've lost my backbones
i'm tired of avoiding you
i'm just happy with who i am right now..
i'm happy with the people around me..
and with all these things around..
i dont think i need to add more.
and u can call me arrogant..as if i would care..
but the truth is..i'm a chickenshit.
i'm still too young to be a grown up!
i'm just being me..
momma's little girl..daddy's little angel.
and i'm wont be tired of it, that's for sure.
but i did...said it..screamed it...shouted it
INSIDE..
and it all happened inside me..
urghh...
it's thursday right?
and everyone is heading for classes while mine..is none!
yup..all of them are cancelled. (there.re just 2 actually)
this is definitely not a life of an asasian right?
so i guess i'll be doing nothing right now except for updating my blog.
it's fun doing nothing at home but when u've to apply it at college..
herm...it's not a good thing.
i feel as if i'm living in a jail while witnessing the construction sites and the jungle next to my university.
it's boring u know?!!
i did tried everything i can..
listening to the music..
it was fun...at first
then came one moment when i realised they're all love songs..
urghhh..
it's sad to think of it.
my life is complicated!!
i want to be inlove but at the same time...i refused.
fine..let's make a conclusion
if i want to score for this semester...i shouldnt be inlove!
and BEL shouldnt become the stupid reason that ruins my result anymore, ok?!
enough with music thing
then..it leads me to take some crazy pictures of myself..
i snap..then delete them..
and keep repeating the same thing until i get tired.
but it's only 9.17am!!
huaaaaa....
after that.. i decided to dance n dance n dance coz no one is watching...
then look in the mirror..
and dance in front of it..
urghhh...it was crazy...
no fun at all!
and when i looked at the clock...it was 9.35am
i mean wut??
i thought i was dancing for an hour..!!
gahhhh....this is surely driving me crazy!
and since it's 9.51am now,
i think i better take my shower..n get ready for a hangout..
ohhh...thank god my friend would accompany me to go to sunway...
coz if she didnt..i'm definitely going to jump off the building..seriously!!
ok..bye now blog!
see ya tonight!
Labels: 2nd sem, boring, breaking dawn
take my breath away
great huh?
but they ended at 7.20pm
agak shit lah
and i've to go to angsana hall at 9.30 for some boring meeting
hermm..
but for now,
and i have no idea of what to do
sgt boring~~~
tido?
basuh kain?
kemas bilik?
try bju?
urghh..boring!
and i've watched part 1 of breaking dawn just now..it was so cool
their wedding was perfect!
i'm inlove with bella's wedding dress..
aaaaa......in loveee!!!
i cant wait to watch the whole thing
the only thing that can elevate my mood right now is...breaking dawn.
yup.. seriously!
and i've read this TUMBLR which makes my heart craving for more.
hrmmm..
it'll be great if edward really exists here in palam kan?
sadly he's not!
Labels: 2nd sem, breaking dawn
breathless
well..i did.
and it still is...boring.
but it's getting better now.
i can laugh...i can smile..i can start a conversation...i didnt miss my family as badly as yesterday..
see..told ya! i just need a week.
and it hasnt been a week yet...but i'm slowly curing my heart..
i went to ctu class this morning..and the lecturer wasnt there
hrmm..was it a good thing or else?
well..it was good since we dont have to learn..yet
but it was so bad that i got lost this morning
the class supposed to be blk tec 10 n i went to blk tec 16..
hurghhh...it wasnt a good start though.
and after an hour...here i am, in the room watching some movies.
ALONE..uhhu
luckily suzreen would be with me eating lunch after this..
owhh...
i missed watching cartoons with syahir
i missed playing badminton with irah
i missed all my moments at home..
urghhh..shit lah
no..i'm a big girl now
i dont cry!
Labels: 2nd sem, sadness, uitm
keep holding on
it was the first day of d new semester.
and all i can say was- it was helll bored!
i thought i'll be very excited to see my friends..
i thought i'm ready to attend the classes
i thought i can endure those 5 weeks without any complains
i thought i can trust myself to be a better girl..
and i was wrong..again.
i will never be a grown up.
ok..maybe it might take one week to get myself comfortable with this situation.
maybe my body needs to restore all those good memories i had for d last semester
but for now, my body might be here in palam..but my mind is still with my family..
and the ugly truth is...they're still in kl enjoying their time.
but wuteva it is...i WANT to be with them!
i miss everything about the previous holiday..
it was perfect!
and now...it's vice versa!
it was boring attending those classes without doing anything
and all i can do now is to search for the videos i've been watching with my siblings during the holidays...
uhhuuu
not to mention...the internet drove me up to wall
what a life kan?
pretty shittt!
it's the last night..and now i've to face the music..
i'm no longer needed in this house..
ok..that was hard..
no..i mean, i have another responsible to be shouldered.
huuu...
back to palam.
hrmm..fake smile, come to mamaaaa!!
study...perhaps later.
i know i should at least have an english book in front of me by now
i know i should start studying for muet
i know i should be worried coz my friends are preparing for muet while me....hrmm still in mars.
hrmm..chill out, it's only wednesday right?
thursday, friday, then..SATURDAY
i still got >48 hours to get myself ready.
phewww...it's good to know i still have time to catch up.
well..at least that's what i've been planning for..
ehhee..i'm not sure if it did work out someday.
plus..i'm not sure wut i should study about..
english factual essay..?
(yawnnn)
enough..that's not d point of my entry.
wut i want to write for is that...
there's this new film..-KIL>>malay film- which will be in cinema soon..
and i'm kinda waiting for it.
i know i've never been interested in malay film before but for this one..
i'm expecting something different.
well..the hero n heroin are cute..
i used to love them..
but after looking at some pictures of them..
i know i'm still inlove with both of them..
the girl..cristina suzzane is neomu yeopo!
i love the exotic look of hers.
i love her one-of-a kind hair..
and another thing about her which i adore is the fact that...
she's not gedik!
u know wut...loving a girl is easier rather than boys..
(dont get me wrong..i'm not a lesbian)
auww..she's adorableeeee
tell me..how can i not love her?
and i still remember the video of them during raya..
they're so cute together..
but wut to do..he's already married..
huhuuuu
till then..i'm hoping for a great day today..
Labels: great movie, hair, home sweet home, muet
skies, please stop crying
and the perfect amount of coldness it brings together..
the world seems better after the rain..
and foods are much more delicious when it rains..
everything it much better when the skies are crying.
but...it has been raining non-stop for 2days now.
and i'm so worried that there'll be flood soon
ohh..please stop the rain..
and dont make it flood yet..
i want my parents to send me back to palam..
i wouldnt want any kind of transport apart from them, my family.
and if it'll be flood...i can see myself arriving palam by bus or taxi..
it's kind of sad...hrmm.
Labels: home sweet home, raining, uitm
it was full of silence
i visited her this morning, my grandma..
and she seemed...hrmm better than yesterday (that's wut my mom told me)
i was shocked by how drastic she has changed..
her face..her body..her voice, they all have changed
i miss the old looks of her..
i miss her smiles...her laughs..and the talkative version of her..
i miss her cooks..
and now i've realised how awful i am...for neglecting her all this while.
i know she has been lonely years after years..
but no one seems to care bout that..isnt it?
and i still remember the moment where she was standing near the road..waiting for me to come home from kindergarten..and then we'll go to the market n buy some ice creams n biscuits..
she has been so nice to me..all the time.
and i was blind n heartless to not appreciate the love given to me.
it really broke my heart seeing her lying on the bed..
i just hope she'll get well soon
she's a nice person..
she helps me writing good memories in my life..
please be strong..
i'm leaving soon
Labels: fallen angel, grandma, home sweet home
make me stay
it's funny
how they ask me to eat everything i want while i'm still at home..
it's funny
how they said i should watch anything i want in tv coz i wont be when i get there
it's funny
how they ask me to help them since i havent been helping them for quite a while
it's funny
how they'd buy anything i want since i'll be away soon
it's funny
how they dont get mad at me coz i'm already a grown up
it's funny
how they'd spend their time with me...while i'm with them
it's funny
how they dont stop me from acting silly..coz it's only once in a blue moon now..
it's funny
how they would say yes to everything i want..which making it weirder
it's funny
how they said i only got one week to go
but
it's not even funny
when wut they said is indeed..a fact
oh shoooottt!!!!
i dont want to go..
there's no life there..
i'm pretty sure my friends would be suprise to see how fat i am now..
herghh..
who cares anyway..
i only want to stay home..
i dont really care bout anything anymore..
(ok...i lied)
the truth is..
i dont want to leave this house coz i know i'd missed it more than anything
but thinking of studies n the responsibilities on my shoulder..
i know i need to go..
urghh..
life's hard isnt it?
but it gets harder if u're not tolerating with it.
Labels: average joe, home sweet home, uitm
breaking dawn
oh..i cant wait anymore
i've been waiting for this movie long...long time ago
and i cant stop staring at the pictures of them..
they are..perfecto!
hrmm..
it would've been nice if edward really exists..in my world.
it would've been great if i became bella..
and it would've been perfect if we're both inlove..
and if u ask me why i dont date..
the answer is simple..really!
i still cant find my edward..
oh well..the answer sounds annoying.
but who cares right..
we have the right to choose the best for us..
n the choice is always ours..
no one can deny that!
n it's funny how people can be madly inlove in just a glimpse of an eye..
then..call it a day the next morning..
that's definitely not wut i've been planning for.
(hrmm...i sounds stupid when talking bout love)
ok back to the main track
-breaking dawn..-
bella n edward look so good together..
but my mom denied it!
she said edward is not reallly handsome..and he looks pale all the time
and bella is weird..
oh really..come on!
nothing can stop me from adoring them both.
they'll always be the apples on my eyes
edward is handsome..bella is gorgeous..and full stop
that's a fact for me..
i dont need any other opinions..
breaking dawn..
come quick..
huawawa
Labels: great movie, home sweet home, oh so random
just a girl named mimie yahaya. i'm not good at describing myself...trust me. i can be a very antisocial person but i can be loud too, when i'm with the person i love. will turn 19 soon..and i wish i can always be mommy's little angel, daddy's little girl. i love bieber n 1D. that's all...
