and it's saturday..
been a not-so-productive day so far..
but itsokayyy..
i'm still a week before the msk test..
hopefully got enough time to crush n torture this brain.
ohoho

Lazy
Tired
Annoyed
Sleepy
Hungry all the time

Thats me me me me.

Hell yeah..
I should stop fooling around

dear self,

Sakit kan?
Pedih kan?
Perit, memangg!!

Dont be fragile..
Dont over-do-it..
Dont do it dah next time...

Keep this feeling safely..
Remember how it hurts u
Remember how it stabbed your heart
even breathing feels difficult kan..

It's time..
To let go
To move on
To re-live.


p/s: "good things come to those who wait."

That moment where u're being nice to your friend but it turns out like a shit.
Damn i just hate it!!!
I am so going to set a limit starting from  now!!

I hate it
I hate it
I just..
Hate it coz it's shitttt
And i hate shit!

dear blog,
oh thank God it's already friday!
i've been waiting for this day  since like.....forevehhhh!

it has been a quite roller coaster week...huuu
i screwed up quite a few things
and not forget to mention...i hate all of my new classes arrangement except the pbl session.
huuaaaa...life.is.great!


so remember i told u i screwed up a few things..
yeah..believe me, i feel like banging my head on the wall.
and it all started when i have to abruptly change from being silly to-----> ermpph not-so-silly.















i only get myself focus in the lecture for 15 minutes then i'll probably doze off or escape my mind to
somewhere far far farrr awayyy
oh ya..respiratory test is on next week and i've studied zero.
God bless me.

apart from that i also got my backpack filled with  drinking water thanks to my carelessness..
and my notes...my tablet..my wallet
semua mandi....pfttttt
and about the classes that i kinda hate at this time...
well, there's this guy who i feel like korekkk his eyeballs coz he stared at my face mcm tgk alien...
aku tau laah aku punye cystic pimples bsau xyah lah nk tgk, skali aku lempang bru tahu.

huuuu....then it reached to one point that i cant tolerate with all of these anymore n so i decided to go out makan2 with naddy.
muka berminyak...tudung senget...ketiak basah??
nahhh we just dont care, as long as perut maju ke depan hyeahh!
and u know wut, the fish n chip are soooooo delicious it just melt in your mouth the seconds u put it in.
droolingggg....


and today, which supposed to be a better day...turned out not as i imagined it to be.
u see,  i wore a white baju kurung to class ...
and little did i know i was profusely bleeding down under...
uwaaaaa....couldnt there be any better day??!!


i just need to run from all of these..
i need to go out.
i need my sisters with me.
no, i want to go home...
huuuuu.

I should just pat her on the back..
I should be more sympatic and emphatic..
I should let her pour out every content of her heart..
I should do all these....but i didnt
Coward me.

It's because i'm scared...and afraid...and hesitate and a bit tired
And i'm just not good motivating others.
But i know i was wrong.
I wish her all the best.

Life is hard...it always is.
It's just a matter of how u handle it.
I wish she knew this.
Oh God..

Everyday is a fashion disaster day....takpe.

Eating breakfast without brushing my teeth....takpe (as long as mama didnt know bout it muehihihi)

Go out without taking a shower...
Survived without shampooing my hair  for 3 days in a row....
Look ugly and feel good about it...
Takpe...
Takpe..
Takpeeeeeee..

Wake up only when i feel the sun on my face...takpe weii takpe!

Spending my day with eating and sleeping  and watching tv- totally unhealthy but  then again, takpeeee!

Home is where...everything that is wrong becomes takpeeee.

I just want to stay here....
My parents want me to stay..
But my sisters are waiting for me there.
My responsibles are waiting for me too..
I.dont.want.to .grow.uppp!

Anddddd finally....


he's home after a week of hospitalization.



And i felt relieved...glad...and thankful.


Be strong, coz u're my hero.












P/s i dont wanna go back to sg buloh yetttt
Taknakkkkkkk...wo bu yao wo bu yao!!
i'm good here...better...and maybe best

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