✿ a cup of love

unsuitable

no!!! please..!!

stop!! stop calling him that name..

stop it..now!

it'll cut off my love towards the real person

it'll make me annoyed with him

no..it'll make things worse..

he's not HIM!

they're two different people..

stop it please..

i'm trying to enjoy my life here..

dont ruin it!

Labels: sorry

❤ "unsuitable" was Posted On: Sunday, February 5, 2012 @9:41 PM | 2 lovely comments ✿

not enough

i've tried to be a better person..and i'm still working on it

i've tried to keep my room neat n tidy..but it didnt last longer.

i've tried to score higher..coz i feel happy when i succeed

i've tried to learn how to stop making silly mistakes..but i find myself going nowhere.

i've tried to tell the truth..but will they listen to me?

i've tried not to fall inlove...but his smile kills me from within.

i've tried to ignore all the rubbish..coz i know they're worthless.

i've tried to please others..only when i'm happy with it.

i've tried to stay calm..and let others think i'm cool with it

i...i dont know!!

i just love being at home..

and when i'm overwhelm by the environment...i start to write rubbish but in a pleasant way (at least it issss for me)

i should stay longer in here..yeah, i would if i could

oh nevermind..

Labels: sem break, sorry

❤ "not enough" was Posted On: Thursday, December 29, 2011 @12:15 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

let it be

now this is getting weird!!

i mean..

you can do anything u want..as if it would shake me off

you can look into my eyes...stare at me..as if i wouldnt notice it

you can say it out loud...scream and shout it out...as if i would care about it.

you can tease me...make fun of me...as if i would do the same thing to you

you can like me..love me..have crush on me…as if i would be your girl

just can do anything you want...coz i dont have the power to stop you from doing so

i'm going nowhere..

i dont even give a damn care of every action that you take

but please dont blame me for it..

and dont say that i'm being an arrogant girl

it happens coz u force me to be one.

i've already made it clear..

i dont need a man to be my partner at the moment

i dont need someone who could buy me an ice cream when i'm down

i dont need someone for me to rely on as if family isnt good enough for me

i dont need someone to support me as if i've lost my backbones

i'm tired of avoiding you

i'm just happy with who i am right now..

i'm happy with the people around me..

and with all these things around..

i dont think i need to add more.

and u can call me arrogant..as if i would care..

but the truth is..i'm a chickenshit.

i'm still too young to be a grown up!

i'm just being me..

momma's little girl..daddy's little angel.

and i'm wont be tired of it, that's for sure.

ohhh...i wish i've the guts to say this out loud.

but i did...said it..screamed it...shouted it

INSIDE..

and it all happened inside me..

Labels: boys, sorry

❤ "let it be" was Posted On: Saturday, November 26, 2011 @1:32 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

okay..i lied

i got driving class again today..

and..it was heeelllllooo boring!!

no one to talk to..

no things to laugh at..

no tv programme to watch

just no no no...!

i spent almost the whole time reading something i barely understand

and when i get bored...i stared at the people..the car...the road

and..suddenly, i saw HIM! again...

and everytime we met..his face become more and more handsome

hwaaa...sounds impossible but it's kinda true, believe me!

i said i'll forget him

i said i dont give a damn care bout him

i said let him be in his way...

i said i got nothing to do with him

but i'm so fool..i just cant forget him

he can make my heart pounding faster than ever..

he makes me smile when i'm alone

he ruined my life

he...makes me think twice about love..

damn i hate him!

huuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrr..............

i just want to run away...

i dont want to see his face anymore

this wounded heart is slowly healed

Labels: driving academy, sorry

❤ "okay..i lied" was Posted On: Monday, April 4, 2011 @2:19 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

ya Allah..it's frightening me

dear blog..

i know..i know!

it has been a week since i last posted an entry kan?

i'm sorry! it's my bad

well...not that i've fully abandoned u, not at all!

it's just that...i NEED my moment.

i need peace...i need calm

that's just what i want..to deliberate everything.

or specifically, SPM!

now..i just came back from a bookstore

before stepping into the shop, i had challenged myself..

"mimi..dont go to spm's corner coz u'll suffer even more!"

and while picking up some books for my sister..

(okay..she also prefers last minutes study, like me!)

i noticed somebody was spying on me...or maybe he was staring at books,

and aku je yg prasan.

but..hell man! let's just ignored the uncomfortableness

back to my story..

and then...i just cant help it!!

my heart keep pushing me to go to the spm's corner

well..u know wut they said.."just follow ur heart"

and so..i did!

i grabbed the past year's question - biology.

okay i know..i'm very bad at making decision..haha!

i should just picked BM or Maths..so that the pain wouldnt be too much.

and so..i scrutinized the answers..paper 3!

ahha..ahha..ahha..!

wait..i barely remember what i wrote in the exam!

then..i memorized the objective answers, and they're all gone now.

but HE!! (the one mentioned before) still got eyes on me..

urghhhhhhhhhhh!

damn it! i hate..hate..hate being stared. (klu handsome, no problem je)

and so i left.. dashed to the counter.

but right now..i'm in remorse + anxious.

ya Allah..will the straight A's slip be mine?

coz that's all i need right now.

i know..tiada urusan di dunia yang mudah melainkan Engkau permudahkannya.

Labels: countdown to spm, sorry

❤ "ya Allah..it's frightening me" was Posted On: Friday, February 25, 2011 @8:17 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i'm sorry for what i've been before

everyday seems gloomy to me..

and everything means nothing anymore

it's not that i'm tired of my life..

and neither that anyone has hurt my feeling

but i wonder why i've been so sensitive this few days

one tiny little problem could cause this eyes shed into tears

what exactly happening to me??

i'm not a type of girl who's easily to break down

i think i'm not

i shouldnt cry for i am

this tears are too precious to be excreted out

but they just flow easily when it comes to my parents

i know i'm not a good child for them..

they deserve a girl thats better than me

a girl who wont say "no" whenever they ask her to do anything

a girl who can relieves their exhaustion from works

and a girl who can stand on her own feet, wont be some kind of burden to the parents

and that girl is definitely not me

believe it or not..,

as my age will soon turn 18

i've never wash my own clothes, yes not lying

i'm very rarely do the dishes

i hate doing house chores

i dont like cooking..but i love seeing people cook

i'm just being a couch potato for most of the time

i only make up my room once in 2 months..

only when it gets so messy or my mom has no time to tidy it up for me

i'll make sure i'll get anything i want in a short time

so..call me anything u want

just curse me coz i deserve it

and yes, that's the real me

those things i've just mention are my true colours

i'm just not a good person..and definitely not a good child

but one thing for sure,

my life would be meaningless when my parents arent around me

not seeing their faces in a day really kills me

they mean the world for me

i never say i love them directly but i hope my actions show it

and i just cant imagine my life when it's time for me to separate with them

in every single thing i did..i tried to be act i'm okay

but when it comes to my parents..i failed

i'm definitely not ready for it and forever it will be

i just dont know how people can handle this thing

and..am i tough enough to face this stage?

no i'm not

okay..u may say, "igt dia sorg ke yg syg parents? aku pon syg jgk.."

"elehh..pdahal nk kata dia hargai mak bapak dia"

well..as i've told u before,

u can say anything u want to me, i wont die of it

i dont care a single word of it

but one thing i'm positive of is that..

there's nothing more important in this world than my parents

same thing goes to u too, right?

Labels: sorry

❤ "i'm sorry for what i've been before" was Posted On: Saturday, February 5, 2011 @12:04 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i'm so dumb!

oh my old friends..

i'm so sorry!!

i hope i didnt hurt ur feeling..

hwaa..i'm so worthless

just now..my old old friends from my old old school called me..

i was sleeping at that time..

(i sleep 24 hours)

then...my mom shout my name n give me the phone..

god..my heart beats really fast at that moment

then..a voice came through d'phone

the girl : "hello..mimi! syaza ni! igt lg x?"

me: (answering dumbly) : "eh..syaza hok skoloh cengal dulu ey? (mesti la ngoks..mne ade org len doh nme syaza) umm..awk sehat ko?" (ayt poyo)

the girl : "haha..sehat, (why u laugh? i know i'm stupid ) mimi, awk guno alamat rumoh yg dlu ko?"

me: "yup"

then..there's no more sounds

the girl : "no tepon awk brapo ek?"

me: "umm..jap ek, xigt. sy bru tukar num. jap ek..012 *******. umm..syaza, awk skolh ctu lg ko?"

the girl : "hoo la..awk xse mai skolh cni blk ko?"

me: (alamak..nk jwb gapo nih?) "umm..ntahla, dop kot sbb adik sy skolh kt cni jgok (zainab 1) hahha..no making any sense. my sister is at primary school lah..no secondary! umm..krim salam deh kt semo kwn2 lamo kt ctu..haha (why am i laughing, i dunno)

me: "umm..ok la dlu. haha..byee!" (run out of idea dh)

the girl: "umm..semo krim sallam kt awk..ok, bye!"

hwaa...i'm sorryyy that i get speechless when i talk to u guys!

mianhe!!

Labels: sorry

❤ "i'm so dumb!" was Posted On: Monday, September 7, 2009 @10:51 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i'll be waiting for you

the white starlight wraps around my tears
it falls against the warm breeze
i'm walking through our sweet memories
tears well up in my heart
what should i do?

can u feel it too?
i draw u in the white paper
i see u even when i close my eyes..

is this love?
look at me like u look at the stars..
can u be the one in my heart?

i'll be waiting for u..

i wont show u my tears any longer

u let me know about this false love

Labels: sorry

❤ "i'll be waiting for you" was Posted On: Friday, March 20, 2009 @11:49 PM | 1 lovely comments ✿

love doest goes as wut it's planned

stand by me

please look at me

eventhough i dont know about love yet

stay by my side, please focus on me!

u catch my breath, u stole my heart

look into my eyes

and say some words

forgive me for love u

Labels: sorry

❤ "love doest goes as wut it's planned" was Posted On: Friday, February 20, 2009 @8:07 PM | 1 lovely comments ✿

shut up and do your work!

i hope i can leave my problems and run to the crowded city of Tokyo! hwaa..
i'm already tired being involves in this unsolved problems!

i don't want to stay here anymore!!

huhuhuhu

please bring me to the heaven..

wait??!!

am i deserve to stay at heaven?

i don't think that the evil mimi can stay in heaven...

hwaaaaaaaaa..

GOLDEN MONKEY!!

I GUESS YOUR LIFE IS WAYYY..BETTER THAN MINE!

HUHU..

U HAVE NOTHING NEED TO BE WORRY!

BUT, I PREFER TO BE A HUMAN-lah, rather than being you..

gee gee gee..

the comeback of evil mimi!!

cik panda!
thump! thump!

eat! eat! makan! makan!

sleep! sleep!

and..stay cute

that's your work..!

but, you better that the lazy lazy koala..

Labels: sorry

❤ "shut up and do your work!" was Posted On: Saturday, January 10, 2009 @3:13 PM | 1 lovely comments ✿

3 days to go

while living spiritlessly..i just ask for one..

what if i get 7?

how about 6?

OMG! can it be 5?

i don't want 4?

i'll be so trouble if it's 3 !

i want 8!! E.I.G.H.T!

i'll do anything to get it

but..it's VERY too late! too late to be regret!

too late to go back to the past!

everything is too late!

aizz!!
time never stop
result comes nearer!

never gone away from me!

and the nervous feeling stuck in my heart

i'm sleepless..

i smile hopelessly..

i shop with no mood..but, i just got a beautiful shirt! love it!

ok! be serious!

i admit, my heart cannot ignored the nervous feeling!

only regretness and sadness came out.
i'm tired of being piggy-headed..exhausted of being coward..bored of being lazy n stupid

I WANT TO BE PRODIGY!!! can i be smart?

please!!!...give me some miracle!

OMG!! i don't want this feeling anymore..go to hell you, chumbag!!!!!!

HELL AWAY!!!!!!

hueee...every action is worthless as we speak!
ZERO!!

dear god..i hate being like this! i really mean it!
i really..
owh..i'm sorry!
for a thousand times
may i ask for YOUR forgiven for 1 000 000 times?
maybe immpossible..coz i'm just a weak human being
i'm so so so so sorry!!

your bless are very enourmous for me.

sorry n thank you

Labels: sorry

❤ "3 days to go" was Posted On: Saturday, December 27, 2008 @8:38 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

KANASHII..go away!!

SADNESS..GO AWAY!!

10 days to go to the..

whether the HELL DAY or the HEAVENLY DAY

i'm sad when it's time to be happy

i cry when i suppose to laugh

i fall when i start to stand

i'm lonely even when i'm having fun

i'm shaking when i feels like dancing

i scream like hell when i wanna sing

i feel cold even it was a sunny day

i'm dying!

right here, right now..i promise won't be sad or regret anymore

my golden chance had flew away! DAMN IT!
i never appreciate the one & only chance that was given to me

and now..there's no need to regret anything!

IT'S DONE, MIMIE!!

why it is so hard for me to face the reality??? maybe it's because i'm too cruel and selfish!

i swear i'll begin my happy life and face the music no matter what will bump on me..whether it's really hurt or it's really great..coz nobody knows the future

i've learn a BIG lessons!

that's FOR SURE!

and i don't really want it happen again

I'M SORRY..I'M NOT A ROBOT!

I'M JUST A VERY WEAK PERSON!

I'LL NEVER BE PERFECT..BUT AT LEAST I TRY

AND I KNOW THAT I'M NOT TRYING MY BEST

BUT..SOMEONE DID..!

AND THAT PERSON ALSO GONNA BE THE HAPPIEST OR THE MOST SAD PERSON WHEN RECEIVE MY RESULT

AHH..what a huge trouble for me!
last word...

sorry for troubles you a lot

thanks for your priceless helps

i want to follow the river to an island to go
towards the sun! can i?

Labels: sorry

❤ "KANASHII..go away!!" was Posted On: Saturday, December 20, 2008 @11:12 PM | 1 lovely comments ✿

story from the hell

mmm..so boring!!
but, anyway..i'm in the mood of blogging..

can't wait to go to port dickson tomorrow..wanna out of this boring hell
had a really heavy works this morning..my parents keep pushing me to clean up this messy house..haizzz!! i'm really mad coz my sweety dream had gone! gonna blame them for it!
i know my english is very bad..but, i am too lazy to studying it
i know i'm an insane and a very bad girl..i'm just gonna stick with it..not gonna change myself!
i'm having a sleeping problem..cannot sleep well. but, whenever i do, there must be someone who ruin it! damn it!
i got a suprised call this morning..my old friends! but, the weird is..they ask me to "lepak" with them in town. are they out of their mind?? i got so many house chores ok??!!
i want to buy slim tablets as my weight is keep increasing..but unfortunately..parents didn't allow me to do so..wanna cry!!!hwaaaaaa...
i want to try boxing..but then, i think that it is impossible..my mom definately won't allow..dad, i don't know..maybe yes!
can't describe how nervous i am..as the PMR RESULT will be announced soon!

sorry for being kinda emo..but, i'm just going to tell you my boring lifestory..unlike others!

Labels: sorry

❤ "story from the hell" was Posted On: Saturday, December 13, 2008 @12:48 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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