✿ a cup of love

feel like dancing

i should have my ctu's assigment finished by now..it didnt work out.

uhhu..typical me.

but whatever it is...it's new year right?

and why cant i feel the pleasure?

huuu...it's because the sky cant stop pouring the rain.

and that it might be flooding soon..

and i shall be going back to palam in a few more days

and i still havent prepare for maths quiz

and my father started nagging on me coz i'm returning to my bad old habits..sleeping late at night for online-ing.

and...and...

huuuuuuuuuu....but i love it.

i love what i'm doing now..except for the fact that i still cant solve the kirchhoff thing..

and i havent finish revising trigonometric functions.

and my ctu's assignment is still in the middle of nowhere

and i've procrastinate my bio's tutorial

and i've quit my physic thing...temporarily.

and..ok!

now i know i'm kind of busy.

uhuuuuuuuu....no me gusta!!!

i should be enjoying my new year's night!!

i'm only 18 not 30!!!

let's party...anyone? no?

fine...ok better get back to work.

Labels: new year, sem break

❤ "feel like dancing" was Posted On: Sunday, January 1, 2012 @2:36 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

not enough

i've tried to be a better person..and i'm still working on it

i've tried to keep my room neat n tidy..but it didnt last longer.

i've tried to score higher..coz i feel happy when i succeed

i've tried to learn how to stop making silly mistakes..but i find myself going nowhere.

i've tried to tell the truth..but will they listen to me?

i've tried not to fall inlove...but his smile kills me from within.

i've tried to ignore all the rubbish..coz i know they're worthless.

i've tried to please others..only when i'm happy with it.

i've tried to stay calm..and let others think i'm cool with it

i...i dont know!!

i just love being at home..

and when i'm overwhelm by the environment...i start to write rubbish but in a pleasant way (at least it issss for me)

i should stay longer in here..yeah, i would if i could

oh nevermind..

Labels: sem break, sorry

❤ "not enough" was Posted On: Thursday, December 29, 2011 @12:15 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

awkward

is it awkward to be awkward?

no...holly grabarek said so.

and i've chose to believe it.

well, i've been living in an awkward world for almost the rest of my life, especially in public.

i dont really like it when others acknowledge my existence..

probably since i'm an anti social..

i'm not used to 24hours chit chat-ing, except with the people i've known for ages.

and when people said i'm an arrogant girl..spoiled brat...bla bla bla..i just dont give a damn care.

i mean, who are they judge me?!!

people might think i live in a boring life..i also thought the same thing..over n over again.

i was once confused with myself..and i dont blame others.

i dont know the purpose of my life until...now

yes, it has changed...

i realised how life has been great for me n i couldnt ask for more..(at least for this moment)

i just need love from my family...and wallaaah, nothing is impossible.

as long as they believe in me..i'm good to go.

and home..is the only place where i feel freedom..

i'm sicking tired of tolerating with others..letting them to win while i suffer alone.

i'm tired of faking my smiles when my heart is exploding over some crazy mistakes done by others..

and now, i wish i dont care anymore..

i wish i have the guts to say out loud wut i've to say..

i wish they could understand my body language..

but no...i know i shouldnt do that..(at least not now)

oh well...my friends seem excited of going back to palam

they wont stop counting the days..

they cant wait of attending classes..

but as for me..i preferred studying at home, huuu.

i'm addicted to my home..

hmphhhh...

Labels: home sweet home, mean girls, sem break

❤ "awkward" was Posted On: Sunday, November 6, 2011 @8:35 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i like it this way!!

here in home..everything seems great..even if i did nothing..i can still smile n be happy

i love spending time being couch potato

watching dear john for the 3rd time..and the last song...

and not to forget, my sister's keeper..

i just cant get enough of this movie-thing.

oh yeah..and did u know dat i watched kahwin masal -the indon

esian drama.

well..i did, since agnes monica is in it.

and..i kinda get mad at myself for not updating new songs in my mix.

oh god...little did i know dat i missed so much things.

and.....on the other side, i still havent finish wut i suppose

to finish.

u know..those tutorials, lab reports, assignments..

they spin ma head right round, right round...

i hate going back to uitm..it doesnt feels like home to me!

well..yes i got good friends there..

and that i have golden-hearted housemates..

and i perform 5times of solat everyday there

but....still there're some imperfections

i hate those leg-breaking stairs..

and those people who didnt wear deodorant on themselves..and phewwwwwwwwwwww excreting somekind of smell that can passed me out.

i hate how i've to be someone else...acting as if i'm a workaholic girl

but the ugly truth is..i'm not!

huuuu...and the feeling that i had everytime i finish physic's lecture - which makes me feel nothing less than a total idiot jerk!

if this is wut it feels like to be a grown up..

i'll definitely choose to be a children..forever in my life.

Labels: home sweet home, sem break

❤ "i like it this way!!" was Posted On: Tuesday, July 19, 2011 @10:51 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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