✿ a cup of love

u deserve the best!

i've no words to say right now except for..

congratulation to me!

who told u to enjoy the world for 2days in a row..

ok fine..blame it on the year end sale..

who told you to sleep early last night n the night before?

even if your legs hurt ..that doesnt mean you hurt your hands too!

studying doesnt requires any legs..u lazy girl!

urghhh!!!

who told you not to finish all the task n procrastinate them?

u thought that u'll be having enough time to finish all the tasks..

and now..u're nothing but a loser!

huuu..i never thought i'll end up like this.

tutorials madness are coming...and i was the last person to know bout it!

oohhh....god!

i got less than 10hours to study for quizzes...finish those tutorials..lab reports..and speaking test..

maaaaaaaaaaa............

❤ "u deserve the best!" was Posted On: Monday, December 12, 2011 @4:29 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

kiss me and smile for me

it's friday...finally.

i had a major hard time finishing lectures today coz my head cant stop thinking of bed...and break..and freedom...and year end sale..and food..and cakes...plus chocolates n the list goes endlessly.

here i am now...relaxing in the room..alone.. since my roomate doesnt come home yet.

and i'm having 3days of holiday which i'm pretty sure i'll be enjoying them to the max...(i hate the fact that i've to finish those tutorials n lab reports)

oh yerp..speaking of lab reports, did u know one of my groupmates loves to dominate the whole experiment thing..

pretty much annoying right?

who does he thinks he is?

taking my test tubes while i'm working on it...

grabing my solution while i'm pouring it down into a beaker..

shake the test tube i'm shaking..

urghhh...i feel like slapping him..or giving him a flying kicks!

ok..that's too much! but seriously dude,

i want to do it too!

i want to learn too!

i want to be an expert too!

i've to make the lab reports too!

i've to understand the whole concept too!!

urghhhh!!!

even if he's a man..it doesnt mean he should take control of the whole thing!

doesnt he knows any words spelled "TOLERATING"?

did he expects me to sit on the chair..acting like an idiot who got no works to do while put on a lab coat and witnessing him doing everything?

did he thinks he's great enough to dominate the experiment?

oohh..shit!

i mean..seriously- u've to tolerate man!

let's be fair n square!

i wasnt really mad at him..

but i was a bit angry by his attitude..

he might not realise this thing..

he might thinks that i'll be pleasure to have him taking over my works..

he might tries to show that men can help women..

he might not want me to think that he's not there to help me..

but i desperately want him to know that..

NO! i dont need u to take over my works. i can handle it on my own..

I WANT TO LEARN TOO!!!

with all this crazy things happening around me..

i just feel like i want to go home..

i want to be by my mother's side..

i want to tell her the whole thing..

i want her to give me a hug and tell me to be strong..

coz i am really...really fragile now.

i break down over things i shouldnt..

i get upset when i'm not reaching my expectations.

i'm more vulnerable n no longer a saviour.

Labels: 2nd sem, sadness, uitm

❤ "kiss me and smile for me" was Posted On: Friday, December 9, 2011 @1:34 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

bed is ready..pillow is calling..n i'm all set.

well..it's just that

i found out that there'll be another 2 weeks ++ for me to get home.
i find it awkward to get along with my new lab partner. he's doing it quite well..but it might take some time for me to work with him. hrmphhhh...if only i didnt lost the one from last semester.
i'm starting to sleep during lecture quite often now-i guess i should learn how to sleep early.. or at least sleep late bcoz of studying not online-ing.
i was a bit upset since no one wants to accompany me for the charity run this sunday at tasik titiwangsa. cant they see the point? i mean, not only do we can do charity for palestinian..but we can also check out some cute guys from other colleges..urgghhh, i just dont get their view towards it. and..yerp, just blame me for being so annoying.
i had thrown a scum on my face just now...herghhh!!! well the thing is, i smiled at my friend while waving at her..but there was one guy who accidently thought that he was the one i'm aiming for. ohh shit!
my life's getting complicated- i feel bad for hurting someone else's heart n i want to smile at him n stop avoiding him, but at the same time...i just find out that my friend had a crush on him...urghhhh, why me??!! why should i get involved in this thing??!!!
i feel bad for myself - i dont have the guts to ask people to pay their debt. so i guess i should keep calm n carry on.
i feel like...i want to go home! my immune system is starting to collapse.

Labels: 2nd sem

❤ "bed is ready..pillow is calling..n i'm all set." was Posted On: Monday, December 5, 2011 @7:21 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

just breathe

it has been 2weeks now...

and i'm still struggling for some air to survive..

it's not that bad actually..but i dont know,

i just missed home more n more..

i've already bought the ticket for home..

and i've to keep myself busy all day coz if i'm not..hrmpphh. i'll be in tears.

and the question is...when will i grow up?

i should set a barrier...

i should be my own saviour..

i should not be weak anymore..

i should find some fun..well i did. but it seemed inadequate.

i should laugh a lot...smile a lot..

and give respond when people tell me jokes...

i used to be the favourite girl...

i used to laugh out loud..

and i can be..again.

now let's try another topic shall we..

ermm..there'll be some charity run next week which i'm pretty positive i'll be joining in..

well..just making sure i'll get myself busy since there'll be 3days of holiday next week..

and i think i should go out more often to get some different air.

it'll be nice to switch the environment once in a while right?

but then..i still got one day off..which will definitely be very boring i assume..

but never mind..

i should make it as a homework day.

till then..wish me luck.

i'm moving for good...

and i know i should speed up my game.

i shouldnt procrastinate my homework anymore.

i should learn my lessons..

hrmm..

till then..good day

Labels: 2nd sem

❤ "just breathe" was Posted On: Sunday, December 4, 2011 @3:34 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i want to cry..but i cant.

i used to be tough..but now i'm fragile

i used to be talkative..now i'm full of silence..

i know i should spent more time making new friends..

but...i just cant.

there's something missing..

i've no mood to talk with others..

and no topics can grab my attention..

i'm going crazy lately since my sim card got some problems.

i cant call my parents..neither do they.

and i've no idea where the hell is maxis office located.

urghhhh..

i miss the old version of me..

i miss my laughter...

i'm tired of faking this smile..

coz deep inside...i'm falling down.

i know this is not good for health and that it can lead to cancerous cell..

but..oh god!

nevermind...i'll make myself happy.

i'll find a way..

❤ "i want to cry..but i cant." was Posted On: Friday, December 2, 2011 @5:43 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

stop the sighing

hey friday..

i'm so glad that u're already here..

it's really nice since my class will be ended at noon..

and that i can have some beauty sleep...making sure my mind is fully rested..

and feel free from books..

well.. not that i attached myself to books around d clock..

i mean..it was really hard seeing others studying while u cant do so..

and yes..that happened to me.

i'm just in the mood of shopping...but no one would want to accompany me to do so..

they said...we'll do it soon.

but when?

huuu...

and yesterday was a hectic day..

i had the ipta talk which i heard none but bla bla and bla..

then i went to perjumpaan kayak and the same thing happened

it was boring!!! seriously...

i just want my sleep...

and my friends should know how to stop talking about their boyfriends..

what does he do..

every single words he says..

every action he takes..

bla bla bla...

it drives me up to wall!

not that i'm jealous of them but...

it was boring...again!

the point is..i know u got a boyfriend and i got none..

and u're head over heels of him..and wishing that i'll be feeling the same thing as u did

but come on..what's your main priority?

hrmm..now, get it?

and it was weird..i mean really weird, when one of my friend acting strangely towards me.

he's full of silence when we meet eye to eye but becomes annoying when we chat.

annoying as in trying to win my heart..ermm, yup..told ya he's weird!!

urghhh..i cant wait to finish this last semester..

it's not like i hate it..i do love it

but...i'm just tired...really..really tired.

i'm tired of studying things that are not my cup of coffee..which i end up of sleeping during lecture..

BEL is really driving me crazy..

it's boring...!

calculus n physic on the other hand are the reasons why i cant sleep well..

i just want to survive...and be free from physic..calculus..BEL n CTU..

i'm only craving for chemistry n biology...that's it!

hurghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............................................

23rd dec...come quick.

i'm ready for home!

❤ "stop the sighing" was Posted @12:31 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

damn tired

hey..it's the 1st december..

and i'm supposed to feel good..but in reality, i'm not

u know what?

i've been so lazy lately that i dont understand what i really want..

i'm too tired of making others happy...

i'm too tired of tolerating..

i'm too tired of being quiet in class..

i'm too tired to share my stories with others..

i'm too tired to join the gossip group...

i'm too tired to keep myself neat n tidy all the time..

i'm too tired to fake my smiles..

i'm too tired to go to classes..

i'm too tired to fall sick..

i'm too tired to eat..

i'm too tired to say hello..

urghhhh...everything means nothing anymore.

i cant give my best performance lately..

i'm no longer in joy..

i just....miss my family n friends..

❤ "damn tired" was Posted On: Thursday, December 1, 2011 @1:13 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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