Live.
Eat.
Breathe.
Dont stop.
Dont cry.
Dont die.
Sleep.
Smile.
Repeat.

And...
On 5th march.
Get the hell outta here
And go home!!!!

My forehead's vein prominently buldge out again tonight.
Well the last time i had it was when i was at home last week.

That one occured coz i was freaked out for i havent really studied and was being a lazy badass despite all the notes waiting to be memorized.
And tonight...it occured again coz i got this adrenaline rush running inside my  body since i just realised that finals is almost here.

Although it was a bit of annoying having my sister laughing at my weirdly acting vein..i gotta say i missed her laughter tonight.
Damn everyone here is being so serious i barely got a friend to laugh with.

And i miss my mother who constantly told me to go to sleep and stop putting myself under pressure coz it seemed that she somehow hates the fact that i got a buldging vein..
It's harmless maaa...

The thing right now is..
While i was looking at this buldged out vein..
All alone..
I know i really need to go home..
Chickenshiittt...need to get through final exams first

Few more days left..
U.can.do.it!

I believe miracle happens everywhere
I believe smiles can take u to the peak of your mountain
I believe in love and sincerity and broken hearts
I believe happiness is all around us
I believe good people get good outcomes in the end
I believe in getting lost and learn somthing from it.
I believe in imagination.
And i believe in magics
And all the beautiful things.

And yes...i believe the exam fever will soon ends up so i shall enjoy my 2 weeks of break with all my heart.
And of course...make love with my lovely bed.

P/s: my mentor is so kind she keeps on buying us foods..and i feel realllllyy awkward and segannnnnn and at the same time very grateful!!! She's just perfecttt..and beautiful and very kind and very intelligent, i think i've fallen for her!
Should've bought something for her from kelantan...some good foods maybe?

She knows what to say when i'm at the lowest point of my life.
She knows what my ears would love to listen when everything else around me is nothing but a loud noise.
She knows how to make me laugh when i'm about to cry
And what i love most is when she knows how to get me back to the right track everytime i'm about to slip out

And most of the time, she knows me better than i know myself.

I know i'm too clingy..too dependable to her
But having a kind heart like that...who can resist her?
And i cant help but to fall inlove with her every single day.
I guess thats pretty much what mothers do.

Thank u maa..for everything.

What a dayy!!
I had a crazy drama in the public earlier this morning..
Arrived at d airport at 7.13am when it was clearly, boldly, giantly stated in the boarding pass that the gate closes at 7.10am.
Ran to the counter like a mad woman with my giant, crazily heavy luggage consists of notes and food stocks and only to find out that the counter has already closed.
Had my heart skipped a beat.

Then ran to the departure gate and heard an annoucement for the last call....yeapp my name, my name was called upon.
Heart stopped again.
Mana nk letak muka...when it was so obvious that i was the only one running at that effin moment.
Then i continued my marathon to the airplane like a mad mad girl who just escape a psychiatry ward with a bunch of engineers giving an awkward glance to this freak, embarrasing, muka tebal punya orang.

And finally had the most embarassing moment as i caught the attention of the whole passengers.
Tebal mukaa weyy.

Tapi xpelah..benda nk jadi.
Lain kali bangun lewat lgi jgn xbangun lewatttt!

Then arrived at my room and had these two flamingos smiling at me adorably that kinda makes my day much better.
Rindu kite lettew...!
Auww..

Anddd tomorrow....i'll be back to sg buloh 1st thing in the morning.
Wish i could stay.
Oh damn...so being acting like a child.

Final exam's preparation so far?
Lets not say anything bout it right now.
I know i'm far left behind...so lets just hope i'll be able to catch up despite the war of time right now.

And all i can do at this very moment is just to keep moving on..
And fight for this 3rd,4th and 5th march.
So lets sprinkle some lucky dusts on those dates...
And pray for the best..

That freak moment where most of your nerdy friends (i mean, good friends)  are already at the college studying their ass off for the finals
And there u are...
Having so much fun at home while your parents keep asking u when u're  going back to college...
Are u guys trying to kick me out or whattt coz i'm not hurt at all with that kind of question buahaha...

Relax laaaa...
Got 2 more weeks whattt...
InsyaAllah sempat cover things up.... err not?!!!


Okwhatevs...
Coz what counts is the amount of knowledge we gain..
Not the amount of hours we spend for studying.
Plus..i dont like myself being compared with others..
So what if they've finished 3 modules so far, or 4 or even 6.
Let them be...we're not them..
Coz everyone has their own ways....
Yang penting..dpt result elok, coz thats what matters most.
So lets just hope i can finish one module tonight...4 more lectures to goo
U can do it sleepy headddd!!!

Damn.
It's Valentine's day tomorrow.
Which means...

Helloooo great, awesome, romantic, sweeeeetttt moviesss..
Damn damn...
I still got lotsssssaaaa things to read and memorize and cry and study and repeat the whole things all over again.

And yes...i got a date with HBO from 10am tomorrow until God knows when.
Why, out of all the movies, u chose  "the notebook" whyyyy????
Cant u just wait till i finish my final exams?
Urghhh...
I'm not a morning person but for the sake of that movie, i'll be in front of the tv at 9.55.
Feeling freshed n awake..with my nasik belauk in front of me, yummmsss.

Muslimah itu,
Terkadang gelak kuat tak henti henti
Terkadang juga minum berdiri
Terkadang sebelum tidur terlupa baca doa dan ayat Kursi
Terkadang pakai stoking mula dari kaki kiri
Terkadang aci redah sarung kasut orang lain tanpa disedari

Muslimah itu,
Terkadang gembira sampai terlompat terkinja sambil senyum tayang gigi
Terkadang air matanya menitis laju tak terperi
Terkadang rasa lemah sampai tak mampu nak bangun bangun lagi
Terkadang rasa marah menguasai diri
Sampai rasa nak lempang orang tu laju-laju without mercy

Muslimah itu,
Adalah manusia biasa
Yang tak lari dari segala bagai perasaan sebagai manusia,
Yang tak lari dari segala macam ujian dan pancaroba
Yang tak lari dari perasaan lemah dan tak bermaya
Yang tak lari dari buat khilaf salah dan dosa
Kerana apa?
Kerana dia juga manusia biasa.

Apa apa pun,
Yang pastinya,
Muslimah itu,
Sentiasa bangkit bila terjatuh,
Sentiasa cuba  gembirakan orang lain walau hatinya sendiri remuk,
Sentiasa cuba untuk improve diri,
Dari semasa ke semasa tanpa henti,
Walau terkadang dia tersungkur,
Itu bukan kerana dia lemah,
Tapi itu kerana dia cuba amvil masa untuk bangkit semula,
Jadi kuat dari sebelumnya,
Kerana dia berusaha,
Untuk menjadi bidadari dunia,
Dan juga di akhirat sana.

From Super Akhawat.

Ceghita kt tv asyik duk panggil2 suruh pi mengadap depa instead of mengadap nota.
And they said the biggest jihad is jihad with diri sendiri..
So i fight with my own feelings yg degil nk mampuih..
I tried not to look at the screen
Sometimes i win, most of the time i loose.
Xleh watpa..

My parents feel happy seeing me kacau kopi pukul 10 mlm..
They thought i was going to stay awake until subuh coz i told them so...
So i went upstairs...open those freaking videos to kickstart my study mood...
Then facebook..blog...9gag, instagram etc etc..
Took  a sip of the coffee...two three four sips until they re all gone.
But the caffeine didnt always work..
Sometimes...they somehow stimulates my melatonin to work like crazyy..
Which leads me terbongkang atas katil...notes entah ke mana2.

Sometimes i woke up in the morning..
Determined to make full use of that particular day..
Grab my mini notebook tulis to-do-list of the day
Went downstairs n found out my family is going out somewhere interesting
So i dress up...go out...plan of the day habis hancur.

So the question is...
Will i ever be studying at home?
Tolong la..tolong la be seghious!
Zis iz final exam kottt...
If only there's a drug called anti-malas over the counter..
I would definitely be the loyal consumer..

Instead of revising,
Instead of dieting,
Instead of memorizing,
My plans during this holiday so far is perfectly ruined.

Last night when i told my sister i was really really gonna study at home for finals, she laughed...and told me to buy my ticket back to sg buloh.
Rase nk lempang!
So today...i woke up not-so-early in the morning and determined to prove her wrong
And got myself fully motivated to study...
Or nottt!!

Well the thing is....everything seems much more interesting the moment u're about to study.
So today...i cleaned my room( coz they said u need a good environment to studyy duhh)
and found lotsa things i collected during my school years..
And it was ABSOLUTELY more interesting than studying believe me...
I was so organized..so rajin, so anak baik back then that i feel like marrying my old me...(paaaaathethic)

And now the room is cleaned...
My stomach is very happy..
My coffee smells good..
So does my hairs n body
And it was a perfect time to study..yayyy!!
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Ok maybe not!




Oh screw today...
Still got tomorrow right..
A good sleep gives u a good mind they said...
Lets just give this body some rests...
Plus i still gt my sleeping debts from the urinary test...
This is a good time to make up for it awwyeah.

And why do i find everyone else being so rajin, so focus on studying that even a 5mins break would be sucha waste of time for them.

And why do i cant even give a complete 30mins focus...whats wrong with u dear brain?
Even a 15 mins focus would be sooooo precious right now.

I guess most of friends had already turned on their final exams switch
While mine??
I've yet to find which switch to turn on and which to turn off..
But as for now....i'm still fooling around, studying for 15 mins, take a break with the same amount of time..hoping for a top notch result...still not feeling any guilty updating my blog while most of my friends are studying like crazy...
Should just slap maa face!

But as they said...study smart not hard ayyy??
Okeh2...times up!
Go study laah u lazy ass..

Dear friday..
When u come..make sure i'm ready to sit for the test
When u come..i'm sure my luggage will be eagerly waiting for the taxi
When u come...my mind will definitely be at home

So now i just need my brain to fully digest all the materials needed to memorize
And my body could stop lying down on the bed
Coz seriously dude, aint nobody gonna read the notes for u...
Lets get down to business...

Did i ever tell anyone i hate socializing?
Well not the whole idea of socializing though...
But..having to socialize with others..and having to stay at a wedding from the beginning till the end is like...yeah u gotta be kidding me, maaa!

So..although it was my cousin's wedding yesterday, u'll hardly found me at the ceremony coz i'll probably be spending my time at aeon until my parents called or i'll probably be at the very end of the world with my siblings or maybe just alone, listening to the music and doing nothing.
Coz i hate noise...and crowds and babies crying here n there and all the things that can burse up me head.
Antisocial much uhh??

But overall...yesterday's wedding was great.
But the thing is.....i miss my family damn much, especially nowwww..
Who's gonna take care of me?
The paracetamols?
Yeah right.

Fever
Runny nose
Sorethroat
Vomiting
Headache
And  test on friday
A perfect package to kickstart my final exam revisions.
Wow..

Bon appétite...!!

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