✿ a cup of love

how can i not love u guys

Other things may change us, but we start and end with the family. -Anthony Brandt.

Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one. ~Jane Howard

When you look at your life, the greatest happinesses are family happinesses. ~Joyce Brothers

In time of test, family is best. ~Burmese Proverb

Ohana means family - no one gets left behind, and no one is ever forgotten. ~Chris Sanders and Dean DeBlois, Lilo & Stitch

though my father didnt allow me to take his pictures

and my younger sister doesnt like to smile at the camera

they still be the reason of why i'm standing here today.

my family is like my immune system..

with their helps..there's nothing impossible for me.

and when they're down..i could die.

❤ "how can i not love u guys" was Posted On: Monday, April 30, 2012 @8:49 PM | 5 lovely comments ✿

shame on me

i may seem as a muslim on the surface but deep inside..i dont think i deserve that title.

i'm not someone who read Quran that often..but He still care about me.

i always skip my prayer..subuh..isya' u name it...but He still give me chances.

i only search for Him when i need His help...but He always there to help me.

i'm not an istiqamah person..it's very hard for me to make something as a habit...but He is the Most Merciful

i didnt study very hard but i did hoping for the best result and i know i should be ashamed of myself..but He answers my prayer.

the only thing i cared about all this time is my reputation..my academic performance..and trying to enjoy my life as maximum as i could reach.
and again...i ignored Him. but He didnt.

there are lots of sign given to me..but i was blind.

He has been very kind to me though i was very rude to Him.

i'm not a good muslim but i hope by taking baby steps..i can lead myself to the right path.
i've been a very rude servant all this time
but He still didnt give up on me.
i was born as a muslim..and i hope i'll die as one.

❤ "shame on me" was Posted On: Saturday, April 28, 2012 @9:06 PM | 5 lovely comments ✿

on keeping me stronger

who needs a boyfriend after all?
well i dont..
my life is already complete now..
i dont think i have enough space for that love-thing which offers no guarantee

it's not about love that i should be worried of
it's not about how guys feel scared of me that i should figure out why
it's not about believing that someday there'll be a suitable guy who deserves this piece of heart

it's nothing about love..
i found myself repelled to it.

by now..it's my future that worries me
my result meant my life..every molecules in my body depends on it.
yup..that should be my main priority..
why should i be worried of something else?
something which driving me nowhere.

friday 27th...please be the perfect day for me to smile till i cry
please be good to me...
i really dont need a part of me to complete myself right now
hrmmm...
how i wish growing up is an option..

❤ "on keeping me stronger" was Posted On: Thursday, April 26, 2012 @3:40 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i dont want to grow up

rse nk demam...pening kepala....nausea and the list goes on and on

thank you upu.

thank you result 2nd sem..

arghhhhh...
now i can feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
whyyy....??!!
wish i could turn back time

❤ "i dont want to grow up" was Posted On: Monday, April 23, 2012 @3:40 PM | 3 lovely comments ✿

i'm back..for good

you..used to make me smile..

you have once making me searching for u..

you..were the reason why i start up a crazy..stupid..yet funny..stress reliever fight with my housemate

you..have the style, the face and the appearance of my imaginary man

you..are the pretty penang boy that i used to fell inlove with

you..are the engineering boy who can make my heart race

but you..have a crush on another girl

you..put a picture of your girl at twitter

you..are a twitter-holic and you often skip classes

you..sleep a lot and dont seemed like an athletic boy

you..care too much about your looks, your pants, your shirt

and you...love shopping more than i do

and you also have that broken english habit which i dont really admire

so i..will stop stalking you

will not fallen for u anymore

will enjoy my holiday without thinking of u

will not believe in love as much as i believe before

and will learn how to cook..eh??

well..later lah.

i should at least know how to bake if i want to tenyeh that cake on your face.

❤ "i'm back..for good" was Posted On: Wednesday, April 18, 2012 @8:16 PM | 5 lovely comments ✿

lets breathe people!!

hoo yeah i'm a b**tch!
and yeah i curse!! suprised?! nahh..dont be!
and i did it a lot now that i'm a human again..
ahhh it feels great!!!

man..i love being human eventhough vampire seems hotter!!
and if it takes more than 2 weeks for me to have my power again..i dont really mind!

yeahh..i noticed some transformation now..
it feels superb to laugh like a ghost
i love to put on my smile and didnt care showing off those yellow teeth coz i know yours arent that shiny white too!
harhar..told ya i'm a bitch.

above all..nothing pleasure me as much as the one that i get from bullying my lil brother n sister!!
awwyeahhh!
now that's what i'm talkin about..this is the real me!!
oh thank god i got myself back..

i guess i should blame depression for stealing my 2 awesome weeks from me..
and yeah..maybe that depression came from the final..
just in case u didnt know..my chemistry paper what like hell..
same goes to my biology...and physics...and maths...and english..and yahhh ALL even ctu!!!

hergh final...
maybe i'll just go with the flow..let's just leave all in God's hand.
and maybe i should stop thinking too much about you final!

ahhh....back to my pleasure..
yeah yeah yeahh..
mama..u better prepare for the worst
here comes your hyper girl!
hyeahh!

❤ "lets breathe people!!" was Posted On: Monday, April 16, 2012 @12:30 AM | 2 lovely comments ✿

never love u less

read it..
fell in love with your new entry..as always..
"comments button"
click it! click it!! click click click it!!
cause i want to comment it!!
i really do...now that i know what i'm going to say..
but the button isnt working..
and why do i always be the unlucky one..
but nevermind..maybe my laptop got stucked somewhere only God knows
maybe 5 minutes of rest would be enough for a miracle to happens

and five minutes later...i open your page with a big hope that it might work, i mean the button
so i clicked it again...
and it didnt respond..aaahhh great!
miracle hardly happens to me these past few days..
or maybe i should wake up and stop hoping for some miracles

so here it is my beloved farah nina..hekhek
i've decided to comment it right here..heeee
and maybe u'll read this entry..urmm, yahh maybe

oh my god..the fault in our stars tu sgt menggoda!!

nnti nk bli jgok la...heeee

td bru bco review awk tpi hati dh mlonjak2 nk tau the next story

definitely gonna buy it later...or maybe finish up my books first?!

ermm..whatever..

and another thing that i'm sure is that the video was bombastic!

bes bes bes...heee

ok that's all..love u always..

muahh!!

❤ "never love u less" was Posted On: Sunday, April 15, 2012 @4:45 PM | 4 lovely comments ✿

i'm 19 not 15!!

i feel pretty much like an idiot right now
jobless..worthless..hopeless..it's all me

i want to find a job..but my parents surely wont allow me to do that..
mimi is still young..
mimi cant wake up early in the morning..
mimi can watch tv..
mimi should learn how to drive on the road..
mimi should learn how to cook instead of working with outsiders
mimi should take a rest and enjoy the holiday before degree started
mimi this..mimi that!!
and u know what..mimi is freaking tired of all those complains!

hrmphh..i'm 19 now..mama, abah..
and i dont think i should rebel anymore..
i'm too old for that..

❤ "i'm 19 not 15!!" was Posted On: Saturday, April 14, 2012 @6:34 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

currently at the bottom of the wheel

i'm not feeling well

my body temperature keep increasing

sore throat drives me up to wall

my nose bleed

and above all..i broke my specs

it was a mistake..a stupid mistake to be exact

huuuu..

i dont like being in this way

immune system..please work harder

lymph nodes..it's time to release those b cells

i know it's my fault and i deserve the end result

i'm sorry for living in an unhealthy life

sorry for all those super sweet things that i've ingested

sorry for those 12-hours of sleep

sorry for the lack of mineral water

and sorry for making u suffer..

i know it's not healthy at all..

huuu..i miss palam now..

i miss my healthy lifestyle there

i miss those stairs..

those hectic days..

and now..here i am..leading to a road not taken

the road which can one day lead me to hospital if i keep following the path.

i should change myself..

i should be healthy again

and i should cut off the fat that i gained since i left palam

❤ "currently at the bottom of the wheel" was Posted On: Thursday, April 12, 2012 @7:21 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

oversea or no oversea?
4 flat of cgpa or get yourself flat
medic for degree or psychology
omg...2nd sem's result..please be good to me...
my future..my dream job..my life
they're ALL in your hand..

❤ "" was Posted On: Tuesday, April 10, 2012 @8:37 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

ermm...u see mimi!!

people change!

u've changed too..

so it's not impossible for others to change

just wake up girl!

enough already....
just be normal..yeah, that's it..normal

❤ "" was Posted On: Friday, April 6, 2012 @10:54 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i dont need a ring on my finger

fiance...
have u ever...thought of what will happen when YOU have a fiance?
well i mean u've to have a boyfriend first in order to be engaged to anyone.
and in my case...i shall have that in my dreams.

but last night..when i logged on to my fb n knowing that one of my friend got engaged, it almost give me a heart attack.
i mean..come on!! u're 19!! and engaged!!!
seems surreal for me!
but...when i open my eyes, i realised a thing.
19 is a good age to have a fiance..or at least a boyfriend, maybe.
many of my coursemates already got engaged..and not to mention many of wear rings to class.
and i....i could only scrutinize the ring of theirs while mine is none.
but it doesnt break my heart...well maybe a bit.

i mean..yes it would be perfect to have someone to complete your life

someone to guard u when you're in danger.. somekind of saviour in your life
someone who could help u in studies n keep your grades on top notch.
someone who you can talk to when u're happy or sad.
and also...someone who trust u and willing to lead u to a better life..

yes..that might be the guy i've been looking for.

but it's hard to find one..very hard indeed

i dont need a guy who ask me what i have for breakfast, dinner or maybe lunch..

i dont need someone to tell me to take my shower early..and that i should perform my prayer on time..my mom is already an expert at this task, i dont think i need to add more
i dont need someone to send me sms every 5minutes coz that can only annoys me. (well i do hate typing a message)
and i dont need someone to give me dozens of presents every weekend to show his love for me...once in a while will do, but every weekend is a no no..

well i dont think that my expectation is too high on guys but i do agree that sometimes..i just cant tolerate with guys
maybe my ego is too high..maybe i'm too choosy..or maybe i should be more friendly.
and this might explains why i havent had a boyfriend.
but im not really worry bout it...it's not like the end of the world
i'll study hard..get a stable job..adopt a child..and live my life the way i want it..
yup..you can say that's my back up plan.

and the conclusion is..i dont think i need a boyfriend..or a fiance...or any guy friend to make my days happier..brighter..or even merrier..

i just need my family n friends...

❤ "i dont need a ring on my finger" was Posted On: Tuesday, April 3, 2012 @9:21 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

ahha!

well...here i am again

the girl who said that everything is boring..

the girl who try to endure herself from internet..

and the same girl who said that internet is no longer in her oxygen.

and now..i better swallow my words..

my life is pretty boring now..

waiting for my dad who got hospitalized for more than 2 weeks now...

readings novels which never attracts my attention

and wait..keep on waiting for the handsome doctor who hasnt showed up today n yesterday.

i hope he'll be here tomorrow...

well not that i'm being over gedik or something like that but..

it's no fun in here..everyone knows that

poor my dad..lying on the bed while his heart screaming for home

tapi doktor still xbagi balik..and there's nothing we can do.

doctor knows best..

but whatever it is..

i'm still grateful that i got to see my parents' faces everyday.

the fact that i'm now living with them makes my heart jumps all the time.

maybe back in palam..

i was overthinking..overcrying...and overreacting towards any stimulus on me.

well..that's just me..no suprise.

❤ "ahha!" was Posted On: Sunday, April 1, 2012 @7:31 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

my life roxxxxxx

malas..!

yup..u read it right

i become extremely sluggish for 2 weeks now..

and it feels great...kinda love it.

facebook is off..

blog is also off..

internet is off too..

i dont know why..i just want to switch off all things right now.

i just want to get rid of internet..

not that i hate it..but i just...really bored with it..

or was it me that bored the internet?

either one.or simply both..

i dont care!

see...! this entry is already boring..

duuhhh..bye now...

this thing is so boring to me

i need workkssss...lots of it

gimme some works mama!

Labels: boring

❤ "my life roxxxxxx" was Posted @2:09 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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