✿ a cup of love

tired of pretending

sometimes...i wish i could read minds, especially the boys

sometimes...i wish i could be true to myself..

sometimes.. i wish i could talk to boys like i talk to girls..

sometimes..i wish they could tell me what they feel about me..

sometimes.. i wish i could dissapear in the middle of the crowd

sometimes...i wish i know what the boys think of me..

sometimes...i wish i could stop being awkward in public..

sometimes..i wish i've the gut to spill out my words without being hesitate

sometimes...i wish i could spread my wings n fly away to overcome problems..

sometimes..i wish i could stop blaming myself for everything that went out wrong

sometimes..i wish i dont hate myself

sometimes..i wish i could avoid doing silly mistakes..

and most of the time, i wish i wouldnt have to grow up...

but come to think of it...what would life be if is it so perfect?

surely boring i guess..

hrmphhh...

friday come quick..

faster than the tears in my eyes..

heal my heart now..

as i'll be back to kelantan soon.

i cant endure it anymore..

not that i hate being here..

but i just miss them..soooooo damn much

Labels: 2nd sem, i miss home

❤ "tired of pretending" was Posted On: Monday, January 30, 2012 @7:30 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

stop it..

dear u..

please stop being so charming..

stop scoring full marks..it annoys me, in a pleasant way of course

stop the 4flat in finals...u seem so perfect

stop dressing like u dont care but at the same time attract my eyes on u.

stop acting as if u know everything...even if u do!

just...just stop it!

i'm trying to reduce my hormones towards boys..

yeah it might sounds impossible..but i'm struggling to make it real

..but most importantly is that u're already taken

and she's beautiful...and i can see that she's the one for u.

your smile when u're with her tells everything..

and i'm just hoping for one thing..

someday...i'll find someone like u.

❤ "stop it.." was Posted On: Friday, January 27, 2012 @12:49 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

me and u

i'll be strong even when the wind gets rough..

i wont cry when it rains..

i'll stand strong even when i feel like collapsing

i'll keep smiling..just as u told me to

i've promised u something..

and i'll make sure i'll deliver it..

trust in me..coz that's all i need

and it's u...

that makes me stronger every single day.

hearing your voice makes me release more endorphins..

for u..everything is possible.

no i'm not really sad..

well at least i'm feeling better now..

i've spend a month without u by my side..

even when my bones are cracking up..

my hands cant afford to write,

my legs feel numb,

your voice echoing in my head..

it never failed to cure my heart..

i shouldnt act like a baby..

but it's u...that makes me regret of growing up

and the needs to leave home.

hrmphh...

i dont need nobody else..

but u.

Labels: 2nd sem

❤ "me and u" was Posted On: Tuesday, January 24, 2012 @4:55 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

on growing up

1st test is on tomorrow's evening..and i still cant shut down my system for tonight.

i'm still energetic thanks to the high caffeinated coffee just now.

yes i'm already tired..but i cant sleep..

i just cant..it's somekind of insomnia.

if this is wut it takes for me to get to

-asasi dinner.

-chinese new year's holiday

-mlm kebudayaan palam

-hanging out with friends

-enjoy every bit of palam

-and other wonderful things ahead of me..

then i'm all set.

but thinking of what it might feel to leave palam soon..

the feelings are too complicated to be explained

yes i'm happy to be back home..but still, this will be the place i'll miss the most.

too many priceless memories had happened..

they were good..bad..evil..u name it.

above all..they built a new me..

and everytime i get tired of my routine..

i choose to read poems as my energy booster..

and this..would be the poem of the day

The Challenge
by: Jim Rohn

Let others lead small lives,
But not you.
Let others argue over small things,
But not you.
Let others cry over small hurts,
But not you.
Let others leave their future
In someone else's hands,
But not you.

Labels: 2nd sem, test

❤ "on growing up" was Posted On: Sunday, January 15, 2012 @3:11 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

coz u're the best

i'm no longer strong enough to face this thing..

your voice..your laugh...they crack my bones into pieces.

i feel like i'm dying when i dont think of u..

you're there everytime i needed the most

u never left...and the best part of it is..

u know how to make me cry you a river

i've said it hundreds of times..

and i wont stop..

i'll say it again n again for it never make me tired..ever!

coz everything i do..is all for you.

in case u didnt know..u're the best gift ever in my life.

i dont care what others said..

i dont care people calling me a baby..

i just dont care, as long as it's not u..

yes i'm 19..but in your eyes

i want to always be 15..

yes..i wont stop growing up..

but i dont care bout the age anymore

hwaaaaaaaaaaa......

truth is..how am i able to survive in the next 3 months when i'm already waving my white flag in just a few weeks?

huuuuu

❤ "coz u're the best" was Posted On: Monday, January 9, 2012 @1:28 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

too muchhh

hi tuesday..

it's my 1st day in palam..after a week of enjoyment.

now there's no more tv..no more loud music...no more sleeping all day long..no more daddy's n mommy's time...no! no! no!

there're just...lectures..tutorials...books..foods...and yeah...repeat the cycle.

well..bout the tv..the college did provide it..but i just, u know...i dont feel like watching it

i miss everything at home...ok better stop bout it.

now i feel like.....so strange!

yeah..strange for the fact that i'm wearing glasses n everyone's asking bout it.

strange since my body becomes more n more sluggish for i dont know why...but it's a GIANT SIN i tell u!

strange coz i'm starting to talk to my own self..

huuu..yeah. it's a fact!!

everytime i finished buying foods or whatever..

i end up talking to myself...

and i'm like..."hell what? stop talking to yourself will u?"

for some reasons i've yet to know...

hwaa..i just hate myself now..

but no worries..i'm not crazy..i'm not!!

hermm..other than that..

everything went smoothly..

it's been hot right here..compared to the winter season in kelantan.

yeah..oh yeah..i'll be back in 3more months.

uhhuu..sabar..sabar..sabarrrr!!

Labels: 2nd sem, uitm

❤ "too muchhh" was Posted On: Tuesday, January 3, 2012 @6:59 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

feel like dancing

i should have my ctu's assigment finished by now..it didnt work out.

uhhu..typical me.

but whatever it is...it's new year right?

and why cant i feel the pleasure?

huuu...it's because the sky cant stop pouring the rain.

and that it might be flooding soon..

and i shall be going back to palam in a few more days

and i still havent prepare for maths quiz

and my father started nagging on me coz i'm returning to my bad old habits..sleeping late at night for online-ing.

and...and...

huuuuuuuuuu....but i love it.

i love what i'm doing now..except for the fact that i still cant solve the kirchhoff thing..

and i havent finish revising trigonometric functions.

and my ctu's assignment is still in the middle of nowhere

and i've procrastinate my bio's tutorial

and i've quit my physic thing...temporarily.

and..ok!

now i know i'm kind of busy.

uhuuuuuuuu....no me gusta!!!

i should be enjoying my new year's night!!

i'm only 18 not 30!!!

let's party...anyone? no?

fine...ok better get back to work.

Labels: new year, sem break

❤ "feel like dancing" was Posted On: Sunday, January 1, 2012 @2:36 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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