hrmmm...
urgh..shit i dont need one!
ok..fine i dont need one..fullstop!
i already have a backup plan.
well i guessed it's crystal clear now..i get happy seeing others inlove..
i love reading love stories..i easily melted over lovely words
but the truth is..i cant handle love.
i always make sure i run from it..
and i'm pretty good at escaping from love..blame it on my sky high egoism
danggg..i'm such a chickenshit!
alright...i shall continue my life as a single girl.
maybe i'm already comfortable with it.
maybe i dont want to waste my hormone..
maybe..maybe..he's not here yet..
yeah..probably.
oh man..not again!
urghh..i was melted, again!
n this time..it happened after i read this..
credit to asdfghjkllove
Labels: boys
long hair vs short hair
and i'm currently in dilemma..
should i have short hair..or just keep this long hair.
but it's itchy!
very itchy to be specific...
and it takes longer time to wash them..everyday.
n if i dont wash them daily..they wont go straight..
such an annoying situation..
but with long hair..i can do anything i want..
ponytail..buns..french braid..knot..u name it.
it's fun..but it needs a gentle care!
hurghhh!
and i'm a lazy person..so...hrmm!
with short haircut..i'll have limited styles
but short hair is easier to take care of..
it's lighter to carry with..
and most importantly..i love it.
but i love long hair too..
arghhh!
esok cpt dtg blh x?
Labels: hair
you are wut u eat!
"mimi..jom mkn ni.."
"mimi...habiskn ni.."
"mimi..jom keluar mkn ni.."
"mlm ni nk mkn ape.."
"esok kita mkn ni.."
urghhhhhhhh..
thanks to mama n abah..
i've gained 6kg in just 2 weeks
crazy right?
huuuuuu....
now i'm officially a carbs addict.
i've to eat chocs everyday..
nasi belauk every morning..
roti with chocs every lunch n sometimes cakes..
nasi again for dinner
n ice cream for supper.
so tell me..how am i supposed to adapt myself when i'm back to palam?
i've to really cut down my meals (perhaps not now..errr)
back in palam..
i have nesvita for breakfast
nasi for lunch..
noodles or burgers for dinner..
coffee for supper..
n i've lost a few kilos..
now i do understand wut my sister has been complaining about..
how she cant control her meals while at home..
which leaving her no choice but to eat all those foods..
huuu..
but who are we to blame?
we just cant endure the temptations of the foods..
and our mama cant handle her shopaholic habits..
urghhhhhh...
that's it!
she's the one to blame!
i was born this way baby..
it kind of sounds busy..well yeah, at first.
but after a week n a half doing the same routine..i get bored.
i wish i can cook..and if so, i'll bake a cake everyday.
i wish i have a boyfriend...to tell me i dont have to feel insecure anymore coz he'll be there for me no matter wut.
i wish my friends miss me...and my inbox will be full of messages.
i wish my house is near the beach...and i shall build a sandcastle n get my hands n feet full of dirt.
i wish i can stop listening to love songs...it made me think twice about having a boyfriend n how awful i was...rejecting them. i know i was heartless at that moment..but i think i'm ready now.
ready to write something new..that i have kept for 18years.
oh crap..!
ok..i think i miss palam now.
i miss attending those hectic classes..i miss mendaki tangga batu caves..
i miss my housemates..n how we get crazy every night.
i miss my classmates..
i miss hanging out n watching movies..
but i dont miss the foods there..
nothing beats kelantan's food..
i repeat..NOTHING! seriously..
but i know..i'll miss the moment when i'm at home by the time i reach palam.
such an annoying girl..i know.
and so..i've decided to make the time of my life during this holiday.
no more complaining..no more emotionalizing...
just njoy everything i have..
how should i tell her?
it has been a week now..and 5 more weeks to go.
and i'm so afraid..
no i'm not talking bout the final's result (too tired to think of it)
but i'm afraid i'll be sick when i get back to palam.
it's not that i hate living there...
i love it..but not as much as i love being at home.
and ironically, my immune system seems to be shut down when i'm there
i get ill so easily..
and my friends would think i'm a weak girl (daddy's little girl..mommy's little angel)
but who cares right?
ermmm..frankly speaking, i do care sometimes.
u see...even when i sneezed my friend would ask me
"kesian..mimi sakit lagi ke? xpegi klinik? muka dh pucat"
and i wish i could answer her "excuse me..i was just sneezing. it's nothing to worry, really!"
but i cant..so i just smile..n smile.
i know they're kind..
they care about me..but, when u care too much about me, it's quite annoying.
ok stop..this is not wut i'm going to write at the 1st place
i was thinking of writting something about odour...
yes, odour!
i got a friend who care less about her hygiene
and it's not a good thing!
i suffer a lot..when i'm with her.
didnt she suffers too? or did she lost her smell receptors?
i wish i have the guts to say to her "please put on deodorant! u're killing my nose"
i mean..yes, sometimes my body get smelly too.
but i'm concern about it.
and now..how do our body get smelly?
-no dont blame it on sweat, sweating is a good thing
but the bacteria attached to our body n grow in the sweat that emits the odour.
and i really..really wish that she realizes how smelly she is..
huuuu...i dont hate her..but i hate her smells!
Labels: uitm
18 & i'm allowed to think of complicated things
i wonder wut it feels like..to have your heart given to a man u love.
but i'm afraid to be one of them..
i'm afraid i'll be easily melted over his words and that he'll break my heart into pieces when he gets bored with who i am..
coz i'm really..really a boring girl.
i'm the girl who spend hours n hours watching love stories..
my fav would be gulliana n bill..khloe n lamar...kim n kris..and list goes on n on..
and watching them living in a fairytale life makes me thinking..where can i find a guy like that?
but seriously..dont people get jealous watching how happy kim n kris are?
i had once said that a big muscle man is not my cup of coffee..but seeing kris..
i think i've to swallow my words.
huaaa..he's hot!
Labels: marriage
my muet test
so yesterday i had the speaking test for muet...
well yes..i'm studying IN malaysia..so, i cant escape from muet.
and basically..muet is wayyy easier compared to toefl n sat.
so..i did, took muet for granted.
my parents only have one advice for me.."u just have to speak as usual"
and surely that didnt helped me a lot.
by the way.."thanks for d advice."
starting to feel guilty, i studied for 2 hours..and it was a loooonnngggg 2 hours u know. (i could've finished watching a movie)
and...yesterday was the day.
i just had an inch of preparation..and i'm ready to screw up.
it turned out to be somekind of disaster.
well..not a total disaster i think.
i did talk..quite a lot..
n i've tried to be outstanding.
but one thing for sure..i didnt know what i was talking about.
i just follow wut my parents said..talk n talk n talk.
and i know i was a little, or maybe a lot.. out of the topic..
maybe the examiners n all other candidates think that i was insane.
oh ya..and the topic was challenges faced by students studying abroad.
damn i knew i'll screw up everything.
i even laughed during the discussion..and this is not the 1st time.
huuuuuuuuuuuu...
so mimi..
sape suruh tido n berangan time klas bel..?
and this is wut u really deserve.
wut a loser!
Labels: muet
should i shouldnt i
aaaaaaaaa...
i cant believe it!!
oh god..
i've found my friend's blog..and yeah, i read it.
and 90% of it is all about her boyfriend...who happens to be my classmate,too!
so..do correct me if i'm wrong
they're friends...classmates..and lovers...and competitors too, maybe.
auww, so cute!
cute..cute..
and what makes me love them more is the fact that they're unlike those couple who'd love to show off their love in public
they're humble...love to smile..and oh god, mimi stop beating around the bush!
huuuuuuuuu
well yes..truth to be told, i'm so jealous of them..
i mean, who dont?
they're almost perfect..like an enzyme with its substrate..they compliment each other.
auww..isnt that sweet.??
-YES!
isnt that makes your heart burns, mimi...?
-uhhhhhuuu...hell yeah!
then wut r u waiting for? just go n grab a boyfriend!
-well..uhhuu. i cant. i just cant..i'm not ready-neither mentally nor physically.
but if u ask me...
didnt i get bored of living alone..with girls, and girls only?
didnt i get jealous seeing my friends with their dates..?
didnt i feel sorry for wasting those hormones secreted by pituitary glands, ovaries, etc?
didnt i want to give a chance to man?
and my answer would be..errr, i havent come to a conclusion yet..
i've to think more n more n more..
i wouldnt want to be a heartboroken girl..crying like an idiot for a man who is making me nothing less than a guinea pig for his endless experiment...
Labels: growing up
i am..
i'm happy but i'm sad..
i smile but i cry..
i'm hungry but i'm full..
i'm smart but i'm stupid
i needed you but i ignored you
i'm arrogant but i'm friendly
i'm tired but i'm energized..
i'm scared but i dare
i'm strong but i'm weak
i'm jealous but i'm fine
i get angry of you but i'm happy for u as well
i'm...
well...truth to be told, i'm scared.
huuuuuuuuu
i've immune to it.
i dont feel like trusting anyone right now..
huuuuuuuuuu....
maybe i should just keep myself in house..
safe n sound...
and i should stop logging in my fb..
i'll hurt my heart less..
huuu...everyone seems to be kind
but when u open your eyes widely..they're not that kind. damn it!
and at this moment..
i've chose not to be too good to people...
get to know me well first..then i'll be good to u..
and u know wut?
u can just keep thinking that i'm arrogant..
it's better..
it'll make me hate u more n more..
it'll repel us apart..
and i..
i love it that way!
damn u!
just a girl named mimie yahaya. i'm not good at describing myself...trust me. i can be a very antisocial person but i can be loud too, when i'm with the person i love. will turn 19 soon..and i wish i can always be mommy's little angel, daddy's little girl. i love bieber n 1D. that's all...
