people change..so do i
it has been a week now..since i've decided to start wearing hijab.
i know it's quite late..very late to be exact
and that i've been collecting countless of sins on my shoulders
but it's the right timing..i know it is
i dont care of people talking behind my back
i dont care of my friends staring at me with that weird n annoying faces
i just dont care about it anymore..they dont know me, the real me
i just realised the need of becoming a better me..
and i'm still taking baby steps
yes i've deleted all the pictures in fb.. but for blog, maybe it's not the time yet
it's my life in here...i dont have a heart to remove all the pictures of me
maybe i'll make it private one day, this blog
but it might take some time..
battleground
we shouldnt make an eye contact with each other which can drive me insane..
i shouldnt know your name...and have a chance to stalk your fb profile.
u shouldnt treat me nicely..and make me waiting for more of it
i shouldnt waste my time for u..coz final is almost here
u shouldnt talk to me like u talk to a good friend of yours..i'm a stranger to u remember?
i should know my responsibles...and i'm sure u're not in the list
and it's not an exception this time...
i still prefer myself to be single
u're not the one i've been looking for..
dont be a coward
ohh 1st may...dont rush.i'm breathless now..gimme a rest
so many works to be done
and i see myself becoming more n more lazy
dont give up...it's not the time
it'll never be time for it..
why cant i be like others?
why cant i read books until 3am or even 4am?
why cant i finish those tutorials?
why am i being so lazy lately?
do i feel intelligent enough? no!
do i feel i can catch up later? no!
and do i already tired? a bit...but i've to believe that i'm capable of handling this moment.
k..gotta go now.
bye love..
Labels: final
i'm old enough
maybe i like u..but not in a serious waymaybe u like me too..but we're just too shy to tell each other..
maybe i should stop...and start focusing on study
maybe i should be more mature...and ignore all those small matters around me.
maybe it's u...that can make me try more..
and thanks to u...for teaching me how to endure.
what to do
it's when u're not confident with yourself
it's when u feel that everyone around you are doubting your abilities
it's when u've to make your own decision that will change your whole life
it's when u've to plan for the future
it's when u start to think about your career
it's when u've to choose the best
it's when u start to feel nervous of what might come next
it's when u're hesitate of saying yes..but at the same time u dont want to say no
it's when u're one step closer to what u're dreaming for
it's when u feel like u want to become a kid again
it's when u need someone to tell u what to do
it's when u feel like u're alone and no one would understand what u feel
it's when u have a lot of things of tell the people but u keep it in your stomach..oh shit!
it's when u find yourself unable to speak in public
and yeah...that's what i feel now
my rainbow
sharing the same table..the same food with family, again..i couldnt ask for more
enjoying 49days with my sister..i couldnt ask for more
shopping with mom again..i couldnt ask for more
sleeping on my own bed...next to my love, i couldnt ask for more
studying on my beloved table...i'll say it again, i couldnt ask for more!!
if i could live in here forever, yeah surely i wouldnt ask for more!
Labels: home sweet home
unsuitable
no!!! please..!!
stop!! stop calling him that name..
stop it..now!
it'll cut off my love towards the real person
it'll make me annoyed with him
no..it'll make things worse..
he's not HIM!
they're two different people..
stop it please..
i'm trying to enjoy my life here..
dont ruin it!
Labels: sorry
my endorphin
here am i again..around the people i love most..
filling my stomach with foods made out of love
smiling without faking it..
laughing without forcing it..
sleeping without feeling of insomniac..
watching tv without any guilt
leaving all the tutorials and works until God knows when
but still...i'm innocent..
i'm going to enjoy everything in here
it's my wonderland!
no one shall ruin it..yes, no one.
noche de amor much?
well yeah...it's pretty late to post bout it at this hour since everyone has uploaded their pictures long..long time ago.
but i dont care..it's my right to post it late..heee
and if u ask me how was it..
well hrmm...quite cool i think
maybe not..
well at first...everything went well
the long opening speech was okay..
the food served were quite tasty
the waiters were ok lahh..agak handsome.
it was enjoyable...for the 1st 30 minutes.
but then..
when my stomach was full..i found myself screaming for bed.
it was quite hard to ensure u dont show to everyone how bored u are...especially when everyone around u are having fun with their friends..
majority seemed to have lots of fun..
taking pictures with strangers they've yet to know each other.
laughing like crazy..gossiping and searching for the best dress..
u name it.
and i..i was nothing but an observer.
i hate being in crowd of strangers..
i'm struggling to fake the smile...laugh out loud as if i understand what they're saying..
showed them how happy i was to be there..
get myself mute most of the time
and drink until my stomach about to burst so that people wont notice how bored i was.
frankly speaking..i dont find myself enjoying the crazy night.
but overall it wasnt a bad night that i dont have a thing to be smiled at.
well at least my un-gedik friends know how to entertain me and cherish the love together.
and..that's all from me.
Labels: asasi night
just a girl named mimie yahaya. i'm not good at describing myself...trust me. i can be a very antisocial person but i can be loud too, when i'm with the person i love. will turn 19 soon..and i wish i can always be mommy's little angel, daddy's little girl. i love bieber n 1D. that's all...
