Today has been a quite unproductive day.
Havent finish my homeworks.
Havent studied.
Havent revised.
Yet to gain the study mood.

And yes...i've alrdy planned of how i would love to spend my next weekend with my sister.
And it all spell fun fun fun.
Apart from that...i've alrdy listed the things i'd love to do after my deadly professional exam.
Spells:" abah...i need an underwater camera, please?"

What a good way u got there, excellent!
Fyi...only 9 weeks left for studying.
Professional exam is not that far...and u still have the guts to fool around.
Excellent...just, excellent!
Oh by the way...endocrine progress test?
Yeah two more weeks from now..
Have u forgotten it?
Excellent! Bravo!

These two people...
Who trusted the lies i tell them.
Who laughs at my silly jokes.
Who tells me i'm ugly and annoying when they're mad at me.
Who tells me i'm pretty and kind when they love me.
Who'd rather cooks for me than eat what i cooked.

Who i missed yesterday, today,tomorrow and everyday.
Who makes my days worth living for.
Damn it.
I wanna go home right now..,now!

4 more weeks!

We see things...we judge..we make our own conclusion.
Thats pretty much what most people do.

But how bout the story behind all the things that we see?
Isnt that what count most?

Dear self,
Stop foolishly...blindly judge people without learning their stories.
Dig in...study..analyze before u judge, seriously!

1. Miracle happens everywhere. I dont think my efforts alone would give sucha result. Thank u maa...abah, this is for both of u who never gives up on me. And thank u God, for answering our prayers.

2. I havent had a good sleep for almost 48hours by now...blame it on homesick syndrome. (Yup i bought the ticket home on the 1st day i arrived here in sg buloh, plus they're having a promotion...so i got myself two rm49 tickets n one rm47 ticket...home, wait for me!)

3. I'm still in my holiday mood that i cant stay focused during all the lectures and ended up understading not even half of the lecture's content. What a way to go!

4. Currently having a crisis. My stomach hasnt been good to me.

5. Al Fatihah to all the passengers of MH370. Our prayers are always with u guys.

Back.to.reality...
A.breathing.corpse...again!
Homesick kebebeyh..

4th semester.
10 weeks of studying..
3 horrendous modules..
3 dreadful progress tests...
Semester break on end of April
3 weeks of study weeks
1 profesional examination..a ticket to clinical years.
1 elective programme

Well.....hellooooo new semester! (Not excited)

Note to self : keep breathing.

Oh no..
No way!
My semester break is about to end very very soon.
I'm like...maannn!! I just got here like..last night!
Ok tipu.

How am i gonna leave this place?
I've already miss it eventhough i'm still here.
F.R.E.A.K!
But seriously....i just want to stay....
I love the wheather..i love the air i'm breathing...i love my bed,
I love my foods...i just love EVERYTHING.

Huuu..
Bilik sg buloh sempit
Makan tak shedap
Tido tak best
Bilik panas nk mati
Toilet byk problems
Tak sukaaaaaa


Ok dah.
Be grateful with what u have.
Maaa...can i stay? Can i not grow up?
Boleh laaaaa

Dear siblings,

I can be your bestfriend, your clown, your motivator, your pillow,
your perfect kind of sister (ohok) but u know what...?
Blerghh...
Keep on dreaming...!
I prefer to be the one who annoys u 24/7..the one who bullies u all the time..
The same one who's gonna disturb u while u're having a deep sleep
U know why?
Coz it's FUNFUNFUNFUN!!
and u'll go MADMADMADMAD at me....still, it's a fun game for me :p
Well they said u can be anything u want if u want it badly enough..
so yeahhh...a bully it is!! Kaitan sangatttttttt pfttt =='



Ok enough of being crazy..
Sbnrnya td tgk cite the quartet..
A story of retired musicians living under one roof...
All the actors are elderly...not handsome, not pretty anymore..
Wrinkles here and there...
But it's crazy how i was glued in front of the tv, siap record lgi that movie just in case if i wanna re-watch it in the midnight....(and yeah i did)
Veteran gilaaaaaa tgk movie like that with the sopranos and what not.
Maybe i'm in the middle of aging crisis, who knowssss..



And yeah..since it's already wednesday  (how time really flies!)
And i have totally forgotten all the notes i've brought home with me, jyeahh..
Studying at home u said? Bullsheeeettt..
I did nothing except for going out buying some cute yet gigantic paper clips for my notes tpi xde semangat lgsg for studying...
Excellent mimi...just, excellent!
Tpi at least ade effort jugak laa utk motivate diri sndiri and did something to boost up myself by the time i become a zombie in sg buloh..
So... what i did was i copied some hadiths n quotes and motivational poems, wrote them down and wallahhhh...a book of quotes it is!


So yeah...2.50am
Should sleep now.

Andddddd it's already wednesdayy!!
Where did...?
But how...and why?
What happened...?
What have i done all this while??

My God!
It felt as if i just got home yesterday..
Mannn how time flies!
MUST.DO.SMTHING.BENEFICIAL!!

I've already spending half of my breaks
Danggg i want more cutiiii.
Ok ok ok...
Starting from tomorrow (as in todayyy)
Im gonna have to live with my to do list book in order for meeee to get alllllll my works done...
Coz right now...i dont see any improvemnts what more good outcomes in my life with me living as lazy as i can be, and as unorganized as a human being afford to be.

Time for a change..
Oh well..as for right now, time to sleep.
But before that...it's moviehhhh timeee!!!

I saw few planes in the sky...
I read the news on the paper...
I heard the updates on tv...
I'm not sure to believe or not the news spreads on the internet.

Whether the plane burnt out
Sinked down the ocean
Being hijacked by terrorist
Had some technical problems
Might turned around
Kidnapped by UFO's
Etc etc etc

One thing for sure
Nobody really knows.
But as they said, never stop praying.
Coz only to Him we can count on..
Be it safe...be it not
Lets just prepare for anything ahead of us.

I cant imagine what it would feels like if my family members is one of the victims in this mysterious case.
Nevertheless....those people who're currently handling, suffering and experiencing this case are definitely somekind of heroes.
May He ease everything for all these people.
Amin.

Although mcqs...the last paper i had today was like whatttttt da helll..
Glad that the exam has finally ended.

Although my hand trembled while i was answering the paper coz i just figured a blood clot on it..everything was fine in the end. Alhamdulillah

Although the pimples love my face especially during exams...im going home few minutes from now, so who cares anywayyyy

Kelantan.....home....family...bed....
Here i comeeeeeeeee!!!




So now imma finish reading this masterpiece.

I guess i'm just pretty good at hurting my heart.
In fact, an expert.
Jyeahh nice work rite there.
Keep on doing that..
U only have one heart anyway...
Pfttt

Kepala rase nk pecah
Rase nk terjun tingkap skrg
Rase nkambik otak, pergi basuh kt sink then msukkan blk.
Mata mcm nk nangis but since crying would take some precious time...kena tahaaannn and hold dulu.
Rase nk blk rumah skrg jugak n just sleep
Rase nk potong rambut sbb rimas.
Rase nk bukak kedai mkn je and quit medic.

Yup..rase mcm2.
Blame it on my active mesolimbic system.

Ya Allah.
Susah, mmg susah.

But i believe in Him...i believe in myself...i believe in my decision
And i believe quiting is never on the list.
So jom keep on the fight!

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