i may seem as a muslim on the surface but deep inside..i dont think i deserve that title.

i'm not someone who read Quran that often..but He still care about me.

i always skip my prayer..subuh..isya' u name it...but He still give me chances.

i only search for Him when i need His help...but He always there to help me.

i'm not an istiqamah person..it's very hard for me to make something as a habit...but He is the Most Merciful

i didnt study very hard but i did hoping for the best result and i know i should be ashamed of myself..but He answers my prayer.



the only thing i cared about all this time is my reputation..my academic performance..and trying to enjoy my life as maximum as i could reach.
and again...i ignored Him. but He didnt.

there are lots of sign given to me..but i was blind.

He has been very kind to me though i was very rude to Him.

i'm not a good muslim but i hope by taking baby steps..i can lead myself to the right path.
i've been a very rude servant all this time
but He still didnt give up on me.
i was born as a muslim..and i hope i'll die as one.

who needs a boyfriend after all?
well i dont..
my life is already complete now..
i dont think i have enough space for that love-thing which offers no guarantee

it's not about love that i should be worried of
it's not about how guys feel scared of me that i should figure out why
it's not about believing that someday there'll be a suitable guy who deserves this piece of heart

it's nothing about love..
i found myself repelled to it.

by now..it's my future that worries me
my result meant my life..every molecules in my body depends on it.
yup..that should be my main priority..
why should i be worried of something else?
something which driving me nowhere.



friday 27th...please be the perfect day for me to smile till i cry
please be good to me...
i really dont need a part of me to complete myself right now
hrmmm...
how i wish growing up is an option..

you..used to make me smile..

you have once making me searching for u..

you..were the reason why i start up a crazy..stupid..yet funny..stress reliever fight with my housemate

you..have the style, the face and the appearance of my imaginary man

you..are the pretty penang boy that i used to fell inlove with

you..are the engineering boy who can make my heart race

but you..have a crush on another girl

you..put a picture of your girl at twitter

you..are a twitter-holic and you often skip classes

you..sleep a lot and dont seemed like an athletic boy

you..care too much about your looks, your pants, your shirt

and you...love shopping more than i do

and you also have that broken english  habit which i dont really admire

so i..will stop stalking you

will not fallen for u anymore

will enjoy my holiday without thinking of u

will not believe in love as much as  i believe before

and will learn how to cook..eh??

well..later lah.

i should at least know how to bake if i want to tenyeh that cake on your face.

hoo yeah i'm a b**tch!
and yeah i curse!! suprised?! nahh..dont be!
and i did it a lot now that i'm a human again..
ahhh it feels great!!!

man..i love being human eventhough vampire seems hotter!!
and if it takes more than 2 weeks for me to have my power again..i dont really mind!

yeahh..i noticed some transformation now..
it feels superb to laugh like a ghost
i love to put on my smile and didnt care showing off those yellow teeth coz i know yours arent that shiny white too!
harhar..told ya i'm a bitch.

above all..nothing pleasure me as much as the one that i get from bullying my lil brother n sister!!
awwyeahhh!
now that's what i'm talkin about..this is the real me!!
oh thank god i got myself back..



i guess i should blame depression for stealing my 2 awesome weeks from me..
and yeah..maybe that depression came from the final..
just in case u didnt know..my chemistry paper what like hell..
same goes to my biology...and physics...and maths...and english..and yahhh ALL even ctu!!!



hergh final...
maybe i'll just go with the flow..let's just leave all in God's hand.
and maybe i should stop thinking too much about you final!

ahhh....back to my pleasure..
yeah yeah yeahh..
mama..u better prepare for the worst
here comes your hyper girl!
hyeahh!

read it..
fell in love with your new entry..as always..
"comments button"
click it! click it!! click click click it!!
cause i want to comment it!!
i really do...now that i know what i'm going to say..
but the button isnt working..
and why do i always be the unlucky one..
but nevermind..maybe my laptop got stucked somewhere only God knows
maybe 5 minutes of rest would be enough for a miracle to happens

and five minutes later...i open your page with a big hope that it might work, i mean the button
so i clicked it again...
and it didnt respond..aaahhh great!
miracle hardly happens to me these past few days..
or maybe i should wake up and stop hoping for some miracles


so here it is my beloved farah nina..hekhek
i've decided to comment it right here..heeee
and maybe u'll read this entry..urmm, yahh maybe

oh my god..the fault in our stars tu sgt menggoda!!

nnti  nk bli jgok la...heeee

td bru bco review awk tpi hati dh mlonjak2 nk tau the next story

definitely gonna buy it later...or maybe finish up my books first?!

ermm..whatever..

and another thing that i'm sure is that the video was bombastic!

bes bes bes...heee

ok that's all..love u always..

muahh!!

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