Kepala rase nk pecah
Rase nk terjun tingkap skrg
Rase nkambik otak, pergi basuh kt sink then msukkan blk.
Mata mcm nk nangis but since crying would take some precious time...kena tahaaannn and hold dulu.
Rase nk blk rumah skrg jugak n just sleep
Rase nk potong rambut sbb rimas.
Rase nk bukak kedai mkn je and quit medic.

Yup..rase mcm2.
Blame it on my active mesolimbic system.

Ya Allah.
Susah, mmg susah.

But i believe in Him...i believe in myself...i believe in my decision
And i believe quiting is never on the list.
So jom keep on the fight!

Live.
Eat.
Breathe.
Dont stop.
Dont cry.
Dont die.
Sleep.
Smile.
Repeat.

And...
On 5th march.
Get the hell outta here
And go home!!!!

My forehead's vein prominently buldge out again tonight.
Well the last time i had it was when i was at home last week.

That one occured coz i was freaked out for i havent really studied and was being a lazy badass despite all the notes waiting to be memorized.
And tonight...it occured again coz i got this adrenaline rush running inside my  body since i just realised that finals is almost here.

Although it was a bit of annoying having my sister laughing at my weirdly acting vein..i gotta say i missed her laughter tonight.
Damn everyone here is being so serious i barely got a friend to laugh with.

And i miss my mother who constantly told me to go to sleep and stop putting myself under pressure coz it seemed that she somehow hates the fact that i got a buldging vein..
It's harmless maaa...

The thing right now is..
While i was looking at this buldged out vein..
All alone..
I know i really need to go home..
Chickenshiittt...need to get through final exams first

Few more days left..
U.can.do.it!

I believe miracle happens everywhere
I believe smiles can take u to the peak of your mountain
I believe in love and sincerity and broken hearts
I believe happiness is all around us
I believe good people get good outcomes in the end
I believe in getting lost and learn somthing from it.
I believe in imagination.
And i believe in magics
And all the beautiful things.

And yes...i believe the exam fever will soon ends up so i shall enjoy my 2 weeks of break with all my heart.
And of course...make love with my lovely bed.

P/s: my mentor is so kind she keeps on buying us foods..and i feel realllllyy awkward and segannnnnn and at the same time very grateful!!! She's just perfecttt..and beautiful and very kind and very intelligent, i think i've fallen for her!
Should've bought something for her from kelantan...some good foods maybe?

She knows what to say when i'm at the lowest point of my life.
She knows what my ears would love to listen when everything else around me is nothing but a loud noise.
She knows how to make me laugh when i'm about to cry
And what i love most is when she knows how to get me back to the right track everytime i'm about to slip out

And most of the time, she knows me better than i know myself.

I know i'm too clingy..too dependable to her
But having a kind heart like that...who can resist her?
And i cant help but to fall inlove with her every single day.
I guess thats pretty much what mothers do.

Thank u maa..for everything.

What a dayy!!
I had a crazy drama in the public earlier this morning..
Arrived at d airport at 7.13am when it was clearly, boldly, giantly stated in the boarding pass that the gate closes at 7.10am.
Ran to the counter like a mad woman with my giant, crazily heavy luggage consists of notes and food stocks and only to find out that the counter has already closed.
Had my heart skipped a beat.

Then ran to the departure gate and heard an annoucement for the last call....yeapp my name, my name was called upon.
Heart stopped again.
Mana nk letak muka...when it was so obvious that i was the only one running at that effin moment.
Then i continued my marathon to the airplane like a mad mad girl who just escape a psychiatry ward with a bunch of engineers giving an awkward glance to this freak, embarrasing, muka tebal punya orang.

And finally had the most embarassing moment as i caught the attention of the whole passengers.
Tebal mukaa weyy.

Tapi xpelah..benda nk jadi.
Lain kali bangun lewat lgi jgn xbangun lewatttt!

Then arrived at my room and had these two flamingos smiling at me adorably that kinda makes my day much better.
Rindu kite lettew...!
Auww..

Anddd tomorrow....i'll be back to sg buloh 1st thing in the morning.
Wish i could stay.
Oh damn...so being acting like a child.

Final exam's preparation so far?
Lets not say anything bout it right now.
I know i'm far left behind...so lets just hope i'll be able to catch up despite the war of time right now.

And all i can do at this very moment is just to keep moving on..
And fight for this 3rd,4th and 5th march.
So lets sprinkle some lucky dusts on those dates...
And pray for the best..

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