✿ a cup of love

i'm 19 not 15!!

i feel pretty much like an idiot right now
jobless..worthless..hopeless..it's all me

i want to find a job..but my parents surely wont allow me to do that..
mimi is still young..
mimi cant wake up early in the morning..
mimi can watch tv..
mimi should learn how to drive on the road..
mimi should learn how to cook instead of working with outsiders
mimi should take a rest and enjoy the holiday before degree started
mimi this..mimi that!!
and u know what..mimi is freaking tired of all those complains!

hrmphh..i'm 19 now..mama, abah..
and i dont think i should rebel anymore..
i'm too old for that..

❤ "i'm 19 not 15!!" was Posted On: Saturday, April 14, 2012 @6:34 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

currently at the bottom of the wheel

i'm not feeling well

my body temperature keep increasing

sore throat drives me up to wall

my nose bleed

and above all..i broke my specs

it was a mistake..a stupid mistake to be exact

huuuu..

i dont like being in this way

immune system..please work harder

lymph nodes..it's time to release those b cells

i know it's my fault and i deserve the end result

i'm sorry for living in an unhealthy life

sorry for all those super sweet things that i've ingested

sorry for those 12-hours of sleep

sorry for the lack of mineral water

and sorry for making u suffer..

i know it's not healthy at all..

huuu..i miss palam now..

i miss my healthy lifestyle there

i miss those stairs..

those hectic days..

and now..here i am..leading to a road not taken

the road which can one day lead me to hospital if i keep following the path.

i should change myself..

i should be healthy again

and i should cut off the fat that i gained since i left palam

❤ "currently at the bottom of the wheel" was Posted On: Thursday, April 12, 2012 @7:21 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

oversea or no oversea?
4 flat of cgpa or get yourself flat
medic for degree or psychology
omg...2nd sem's result..please be good to me...
my future..my dream job..my life
they're ALL in your hand..

❤ "" was Posted On: Tuesday, April 10, 2012 @8:37 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

ermm...u see mimi!!

people change!

u've changed too..

so it's not impossible for others to change

just wake up girl!

enough already....
just be normal..yeah, that's it..normal

❤ "" was Posted On: Friday, April 6, 2012 @10:54 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i dont need a ring on my finger

fiance...
have u ever...thought of what will happen when YOU have a fiance?
well i mean u've to have a boyfriend first in order to be engaged to anyone.
and in my case...i shall have that in my dreams.

but last night..when i logged on to my fb n knowing that one of my friend got engaged, it almost give me a heart attack.
i mean..come on!! u're 19!! and engaged!!!
seems surreal for me!
but...when i open my eyes, i realised a thing.
19 is a good age to have a fiance..or at least a boyfriend, maybe.
many of my coursemates already got engaged..and not to mention many of wear rings to class.
and i....i could only scrutinize the ring of theirs while mine is none.
but it doesnt break my heart...well maybe a bit.

i mean..yes it would be perfect to have someone to complete your life

someone to guard u when you're in danger.. somekind of saviour in your life
someone who could help u in studies n keep your grades on top notch.
someone who you can talk to when u're happy or sad.
and also...someone who trust u and willing to lead u to a better life..

yes..that might be the guy i've been looking for.

but it's hard to find one..very hard indeed

i dont need a guy who ask me what i have for breakfast, dinner or maybe lunch..

i dont need someone to tell me to take my shower early..and that i should perform my prayer on time..my mom is already an expert at this task, i dont think i need to add more
i dont need someone to send me sms every 5minutes coz that can only annoys me. (well i do hate typing a message)
and i dont need someone to give me dozens of presents every weekend to show his love for me...once in a while will do, but every weekend is a no no..

well i dont think that my expectation is too high on guys but i do agree that sometimes..i just cant tolerate with guys
maybe my ego is too high..maybe i'm too choosy..or maybe i should be more friendly.
and this might explains why i havent had a boyfriend.
but im not really worry bout it...it's not like the end of the world
i'll study hard..get a stable job..adopt a child..and live my life the way i want it..
yup..you can say that's my back up plan.

and the conclusion is..i dont think i need a boyfriend..or a fiance...or any guy friend to make my days happier..brighter..or even merrier..

i just need my family n friends...

❤ "i dont need a ring on my finger" was Posted On: Tuesday, April 3, 2012 @9:21 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

ahha!

well...here i am again

the girl who said that everything is boring..

the girl who try to endure herself from internet..

and the same girl who said that internet is no longer in her oxygen.

and now..i better swallow my words..

my life is pretty boring now..

waiting for my dad who got hospitalized for more than 2 weeks now...

readings novels which never attracts my attention

and wait..keep on waiting for the handsome doctor who hasnt showed up today n yesterday.

i hope he'll be here tomorrow...

well not that i'm being over gedik or something like that but..

it's no fun in here..everyone knows that

poor my dad..lying on the bed while his heart screaming for home

tapi doktor still xbagi balik..and there's nothing we can do.

doctor knows best..

but whatever it is..

i'm still grateful that i got to see my parents' faces everyday.

the fact that i'm now living with them makes my heart jumps all the time.

maybe back in palam..

i was overthinking..overcrying...and overreacting towards any stimulus on me.

well..that's just me..no suprise.

❤ "ahha!" was Posted On: Sunday, April 1, 2012 @7:31 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

my life roxxxxxx

malas..!

yup..u read it right

i become extremely sluggish for 2 weeks now..

and it feels great...kinda love it.

facebook is off..

blog is also off..

internet is off too..

i dont know why..i just want to switch off all things right now.

i just want to get rid of internet..

not that i hate it..but i just...really bored with it..

or was it me that bored the internet?

either one.or simply both..

i dont care!

see...! this entry is already boring..

duuhhh..bye now...

this thing is so boring to me

i need workkssss...lots of it

gimme some works mama!

Labels: boring

❤ "my life roxxxxxx" was Posted @2:09 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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