It's raining outside...
And i feel like wrapping myself in the blanket..
But it didnt last for too long..
This room is kinda hot.

And i'm having a love-hate relationship with the rain

I love it when it comes with the winds
Gently passed through my face n turn my hairs into a nice mess.
Yes i love it.

And i love having my sleep during the rain..
I mean...who doesnt?
But sadly i just woke up...and i dont feel like sleeping anymore.

I love the gloomy skies..
I love the sound of the thunders
I admire the heavy rain n how it sounds.
I love seeing birds flying here n there trying to escape themselves.
I simply love everything.

But there're things that kinda stab my heart during the rain
I just hate the fact that it makes me miss my home more n more.
And i feel like spending my time with my family which i obviously cant
And i just cant wait for my sister to come n pick me up tonight if not tomorrow's morning.
I too, need to escape from this place.

I just...
I feel so fragile right now.
Life has been a roller coaster this week.
And it's not because of studies or homeworks or anything.
And i just dont feel like sharing it here.
But one thing for sure...i'm counting the days when it soon will reach March.

Nothing special really.
But somehow my biggest issue that i've been suffering from will soon ends in march.
So i guess...wake me up when it's march then huh?!

So until march hits the calendar..
My dear heart..please bear with it.

My heart skips a beat.
No...2 beats.
No....maybe an infinity beats.

No...not because of a guy ( heart has already frozen)
No..not because i've done a big sin.
No...not because of any stupid reasons...

Well it's just that....
Kejap lgi nk kena promote our big event kt year1!!
In the lecture hall....
And i'm the one who's doing the talk....
Oh God...

Lets just hope i wont screw up.
Maaaa....i need u noww....

Sabar2...by next week,during this time...
I 'm all set.
Ready to hit kelantan.
Herghh..

I dont know what happened to me.
I dont know how it started.
And i just simply dont know about anything...

I woke up early in the morning...
Prepared myself to class and get my mind ready for the hardest module of all, the CNS.
And i arrived the lecture hall before the lecture started...which is quite rare.
But at 8.30am, thats it!!
I'm already waving my white flag, and there i was sleeping soundly at the back while the lecturer is talking about things only she would understands.

And after the physiology class...there was this PHPM class about ANOVA.
What a beautiful name..but the content?
Same goes as before, only the Dr know what he's talking about.
So i decided to do things i did best..
Rewarding myself with a good quality sleep.

And then there was this pharmacology lecture which i started to feel guilty for sleeping the whole time, so i've decided to open my eyes and bear with the lecture.
Well actually it was about the 'attention deficit drugs so thats kinda awkward to sleep during the lecture hmphhhh
And yes...i survived after a thousand times of yawning.

Then i came back to my room.
Eat..play...and sleep until its 2pm
And then ready for the next lecture, anatomy..which is quite interesting.

Then we hang out with the Dr nurul
And eat n eat n eat coz she forced us to.
Siap tapau nasik goreng...coz she forced us to jugakkk!
What a kind hearted mentor.

Then i came home..eat n sleep
And woke up...and eat
And watch movies...and now, eat again.
And i feel so full right now...but i'm still eating.
Weeyyyy bila nk study ni?

Hurghhh...cita2 utk blk rumah n dpt compliment from mama that i've shed some weight nmpknya blh lempar jauh2 or tanam kt kubur je.
I'll never have a skinny hourglass body with this habit.
Huuuuhh

Toilet's lights are out.
My laptop charger burnt last night.
now i can no longer turn on the laptop.

And this morning.....i was awaken by another heart breaking news
Washing machine's plug are out too.

What kind of place is thiz?????
God...oh God....
I.just.want.to.move.out!!!!!!!

got 2 more weeks before sem break.
and my head is no longer here in sg buloh

this is the reason why i dont like buying my ticket home.
i just....
cant study when the fact is i got a test this friday.
my mind...they're gone.
hurghhh

oh god!!

i wanna be there when he lost his appetite 2 days before the result came out
i wanna tell him not to worry too much coz i know he's the best.
i wanna be there when he receives his rewards.
i wanna be the one who saw him crying...smilling...and giggling.
i wanna hug him and tell him not to grow old too fast.
i just....i wanna always be there for my clown boy..

oh God i just wanna go home now!
and hug him and kiss him and bully him....

Dear blog...
I know both of my sisters are stressed out with their works at this moment.
Both are working around the clock during the weekdays
yet willing to spend the weekends out with me

I know i'm a bit crazy n annoying
And gedik and manja and mengada
But they never complained.

Weekends are the days i would be eagerly waiting for..
I dont mind having to take shower early
 or sacrifices my bed time just to go out with them
For i knew it'll be worth it.

But now...
One of them is called up for an interview of another job
And another one is freaking tired and stress with her job that she's thinking of applying another job too...maybe outside kl and worse, maybe outside selangor and super worse...maybe not too far from home.
Huuuu...

I'm just so used hanging out with them
Laughing with every content of my heart
And simply be myself and talk about everything i want

Oh god...
As much as i want the happiest life for them..
I also dont wanna be separated from them...

Lesson learnt..
Never ask boys to copy some movies into your hard disk.
Ghost story...?
Thriller..??
Ancient chinese movie?
Action movie?

Errrr perfecto...brillianto!
Where in the word "romance" did u not understangggg?
Hurghhh boys boys..
I dont understand them afterall..

"Pain is meant to be felt."
Thats what John Green said in his novel.

If life is about bruising your heart and having to feel the pain all by yourself
Well i think i know how it feels like

If it's just a small stupid thing that people can easily ignore..
Why cant i do the same?
Why cant i just...let go.

Teheee..well it's  not that hectic really
How to say this..?!
this weekend isnt like any other weekend i usually have..
It's more.....well spent i guess?

So today i went to this health programme held by our seniors
And we got to walk with the blind people (and the blind folded friends since we re running out of the real blind contestants)
And it was.....superb!!



Heart-shaped ballons...nice weather...blind folded partners who're suck at being blind hahaha and free t shirt(??)

plus christmas shopping right after...
yeahhh...couldnt be any better..
and now i'm super tired...insomniac...
and need to be mentally n physically prepared for tomorrow's 6 lectures
and also be patience coz it's holiday on tuesday awww yeahhh

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