✿ a cup of love

how should i tell her?

hello saturday...

it has been a week now..and 5 more weeks to go.

and i'm so afraid..

no i'm not talking bout the final's result (too tired to think of it)

but i'm afraid i'll be sick when i get back to palam.

it's not that i hate living there...

i love it..but not as much as i love being at home.

and ironically, my immune system seems to be shut down when i'm there

i get ill so easily..

and my friends would think i'm a weak girl (daddy's little girl..mommy's little angel)

but who cares right?

ermmm..frankly speaking, i do care sometimes.

u see...even when i sneezed my friend would ask me

"kesian..mimi sakit lagi ke? xpegi klinik? muka dh pucat"

and i wish i could answer her "excuse me..i was just sneezing. it's nothing to worry, really!"

but i cant..so i just smile..n smile.

i know they're kind..

they care about me..but, when u care too much about me, it's quite annoying.

ok stop..this is not wut i'm going to write at the 1st place

i was thinking of writting something about odour...

yes, odour!

i got a friend who care less about her hygiene

and it's not a good thing!

i suffer a lot..when i'm with her.

didnt she suffers too? or did she lost her smell receptors?

i wish i have the guts to say to her "please put on deodorant! u're killing my nose"

i mean..yes, sometimes my body get smelly too.

but i'm concern about it.

and now..how do our body get smelly?

-no dont blame it on sweat, sweating is a good thing

but the bacteria attached to our body n grow in the sweat that emits the odour.

and i really..really wish that she realizes how smelly she is..

huuuu...i dont hate her..but i hate her smells!

Labels: uitm

❤ "how should i tell her?" was Posted On: Saturday, October 15, 2011 @12:33 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

18 & i'm allowed to think of complicated things

i'm the girl who get jealous watching others be in love..

i wonder wut it feels like..to have your heart given to a man u love.

but i'm afraid to be one of them..

i'm afraid i'll be easily melted over his words and that he'll break my heart into pieces when he gets bored with who i am..

coz i'm really..really a boring girl.

i'm the girl who spend hours n hours watching love stories..

my fav would be gulliana n bill..khloe n lamar...kim n kris..and list goes on n on..

and watching them living in a fairytale life makes me thinking..where can i find a guy like that?

but seriously..dont people get jealous watching how happy kim n kris are?

i had once said that a big muscle man is not my cup of coffee..but seeing kris..

i think i've to swallow my words.

huaaa..he's hot!

Labels: marriage

❤ "18 & i'm allowed to think of complicated things" was Posted On: Thursday, October 13, 2011 @2:27 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

my muet test

so yesterday i had the speaking test for muet...

well yes..i'm studying IN malaysia..so, i cant escape from muet.

and basically..muet is wayyy easier compared to toefl n sat.

so..i did, took muet for granted.

my parents only have one advice for me.."u just have to speak as usual"

and surely that didnt helped me a lot.

by the way.."thanks for d advice."

starting to feel guilty, i studied for 2 hours..and it was a loooonnngggg 2 hours u know. (i could've finished watching a movie)

and...yesterday was the day.

i just had an inch of preparation..and i'm ready to screw up.

it turned out to be somekind of disaster.

well..not a total disaster i think.

i did talk..quite a lot..

n i've tried to be outstanding.

but one thing for sure..i didnt know what i was talking about.

i just follow wut my parents said..talk n talk n talk.

and i know i was a little, or maybe a lot.. out of the topic..

maybe the examiners n all other candidates think that i was insane.

oh ya..and the topic was challenges faced by students studying abroad.

damn i knew i'll screw up everything.

i even laughed during the discussion..and this is not the 1st time.

huuuuuuuuuuuu...

so mimi..

sape suruh tido n berangan time klas bel..?

and this is wut u really deserve.

wut a loser!

Labels: muet

❤ "my muet test" was Posted On: Wednesday, October 12, 2011 @11:45 AM | 0 lovely comments ✿

should i shouldnt i

aaaaaaaaa...

i cant believe it!!

oh god..

i've found my friend's blog..and yeah, i read it.

and 90% of it is all about her boyfriend...who happens to be my classmate,too!

so..do correct me if i'm wrong

they're friends...classmates..and lovers...and competitors too, maybe.

auww, so cute!

cute..cute..

and what makes me love them more is the fact that they're unlike those couple who'd love to show off their love in public

they're humble...love to smile..and oh god, mimi stop beating around the bush!

huuuuuuuuu

well yes..truth to be told, i'm so jealous of them..

i mean, who dont?

they're almost perfect..like an enzyme with its substrate..they compliment each other.

auww..isnt that sweet.??

-YES!

isnt that makes your heart burns, mimi...?

-uhhhhhuuu...hell yeah!

then wut r u waiting for? just go n grab a boyfriend!

-well..uhhuu. i cant. i just cant..i'm not ready-neither mentally nor physically.

but if u ask me...

didnt i get bored of living alone..with girls, and girls only?

didnt i get jealous seeing my friends with their dates..?

didnt i feel sorry for wasting those hormones secreted by pituitary glands, ovaries, etc?

didnt i want to give a chance to man?

and my answer would be..errr, i havent come to a conclusion yet..

i've to think more n more n more..

i wouldnt want to be a heartboroken girl..crying like an idiot for a man who is making me nothing less than a guinea pig for his endless experiment...

Labels: growing up

❤ "should i shouldnt i" was Posted On: Sunday, October 9, 2011 @9:21 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i am..

i'm happy but i'm sad..

i smile but i cry..

i'm hungry but i'm full..

i'm smart but i'm stupid

i needed you but i ignored you

i'm arrogant but i'm friendly

i'm tired but i'm energized..

i'm scared but i dare

i'm strong but i'm weak

i'm jealous but i'm fine

i get angry of you but i'm happy for u as well

i'm...

well...truth to be told, i'm scared.

huuuuuuuuu

❤ "i am.." was Posted On: Saturday, October 8, 2011 @11:04 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

i've immune to it.

i dont feel like trusting anyone right now..

huuuuuuuuuu....

maybe i should just keep myself in house..

safe n sound...

and i should stop logging in my fb..

i'll hurt my heart less..

huuu...everyone seems to be kind

but when u open your eyes widely..they're not that kind. damn it!

and at this moment..

i've chose not to be too good to people...

get to know me well first..then i'll be good to u..

and u know wut?

u can just keep thinking that i'm arrogant..

it's better..

it'll make me hate u more n more..

it'll repel us apart..

and i..

i love it that way!

damn u!

❤ "i've immune to it." was Posted On: Thursday, October 6, 2011 @10:22 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

finally in pink

finally..i can smell almost everything

finally..my voice doesnt sound so weird

and finally..the exam is on.

uhhu..

u dont know how hard it is watching ur friends studying while u cant even get off from the bed since your temperature was madly rising up

u dont know how sad i was when my fav food doesnt taste delicious anymore, thanks to my lazy tastebuds.

and u dont know how my heart screaming for home from the moment i reached palam last week.

u dont know how i became teary when i heard her voice yesterday.

❤ "finally in pink" was Posted On: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 @6:36 PM | 0 lovely comments ✿

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