Oh myyyy godddd.
I'm not interested in listening to your political views.
Im not.
Seriously im not..
So just stop girl..
DOnt make me hate u.
I am so dont care of who is dying, who died ..and who is not.
We're nt on the same page girl.
I need to tell u that..but i think im just going to hold my patience until it reaches its boiling point.
So until then...just hold your patience...keep on study...strive for this fridays test...
 mimi sabarrr..just bear with em all.
Think of the sweetness of gettting an A in the exam..
Imagine
Magine..
HuuuHh

I'm gettin worse...
Kept thinking about the same person over n over again..
I neeed to know the bad things about him
I just need to know that hes not that shy...and not that kind as i thought he is.
I just need smthin geddit?
something to bruise my heart.
To stop me from thinking about him and how adorable he is..or so i thought.
I need something...
SOmeone better tell me now that hes a bad guy that'll break my heart.
Hes just baddd
Mimi go study nowwwww
Damn i hate myself today.

Errrr do all people get weird when they're in love??
Posting those nauseous things on their facebook wall n try to make me sick of em....?
Oh God...i swear imma throw up if these people keep acting lke this.
So obnoxious, not kidding yuhhhh.

Im afraid i might fail the final.
Never thought about it before but somehow....when everybody is talking about this so called hot topic of the week-about who are the 14 students that failed in the final, somehow...im afraid i might be one of them.

What if...i feel like im safe enough to pass the exam but for some reasons...maybe God wants to test me.
What if....i felt confident with my answers but somehow i did some careless mistakes during the exam.
What if....i really did bad in the exam but i feel like i did it okay.
What if..i really really failed my 1st semester.


Oh God..
This is like a very big issue since our money wont be banked in if we failed the exam.
And jpa wont tolerate with us anymore.
Burdening my parents is never in my list.

Ya Allah...takutnyaaaa.
And the result will be released by the end of this week and it's only monday but my legs are already turned to jelly.

Because i'm not the kind of girl who would say hi to u even if i want to
And i feel really weird walking with boys after class..

Because i'm not the outspoken person which is the reason why my sister told me to speak more in public.
Because the butterflies wont leave my stomach.
And because i'm full of insecurities.

Because i've never really had my first love before
And because i'm just being too careful trying not to take the wrong step.

Because i love perfection though it hardly exist.

And most probably because i feel comfortable being this way.
And because my parents told me to focus on my future and just that only.

Because it's friday and tomorrow is saturday which is why i'm going out eventhough my scholarship still havent been bank in yet and i sorta pokai sudah.

Because i hate being the exco kolej coz i dont know why she picked me.
Is it because i'm her friend or because i'll just be her shadow.
I'm not sure buti think imma go with the first one necause shes my friend and shes neen nice so far.

and lastly because i dont feel like studying though it's already the 1st week of  cardiovascular module and i shpuld be working my butt off by now but hmphhhhh for some reason..
I think im just gonna pampered myself.
Let my cardio take a normal work.
Let my brain get just a bit of relaxation.
And simply let the laziness rule this body for a while.
Tak salah pon.


And dear blog...
Bye and yeahhh thats all for today.
I felt relieved.

My dear body,
When life is hard....just bear with it.
Be positive and never look back.
Ok maybe u can look back...but not all the time.
Be tough girl.
Be tough.
Something great is waiting ahead of u.
Wait for it...be excited,
Anddddd....
Just live your life.

We cant always choose our circumstances, but we can choose our attitudes towards them.

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