sigh
huu..obviously i didnt sound happy at all..
i know..in this heavenly mid year break..i should really enjoy every moment of it..
and..i really missed my old self..
but, something came to my mind these past few days..
and..it took myself into a deep thought..
i dont know how to expressed it in this blog and i've never said this thing to anyone else, including my mom!
but one thing for sure..i just felt that i might become a useless kid and turned out unlike what my parents expect me to be..
ahh..it really hurt my heart when i'm thinking of this thing..
oh god..i'll do anything to make them smile, but i dont know why..
why cant i changed myself?
why cant i became just a lil bit workaholic?
there's a quote saying moving slowly is better than stood still..
and i tried to move but at the same time,i found myself numb.
oh god..now what should i do?
should i just changed myself?
or should i get to my old self?
ahh..i better stop here before tears started to fall down
i know..in this heavenly mid year break..i should really enjoy every moment of it..
and..i really missed my old self..
the one who always overjoyed with her holidays..
the one who dont know how to say NO to entertainment
the one who dont know where to stop when begin something..
oops! studies is the only exception in this matter.
but, something came to my mind these past few days..
and..it took myself into a deep thought..
i dont know how to expressed it in this blog and i've never said this thing to anyone else, including my mom!
but one thing for sure..i just felt that i might become a useless kid and turned out unlike what my parents expect me to be..
ahh..it really hurt my heart when i'm thinking of this thing..
well..who doesnt want to be bright?
who doesnt want to study abroad?
and..is there anyone who doesnt want to make their parents proud of them..?
make them thought that their sacrifice has all paid off ?
oh god..i'll do anything to make them smile, but i dont know why..
why cant i changed myself?
why cant i became just a lil bit workaholic?
there's a quote saying moving slowly is better than stood still..
and i tried to move but at the same time,i found myself numb.
oh god..now what should i do?
should i just changed myself?
or should i get to my old self?
ahh..i better stop here before tears started to fall down
just a girl named mimie yahaya. i'm not good at describing myself...trust me. i can be a very antisocial person but i can be loud too, when i'm with the person i love. will turn 19 soon..and i wish i can always be mommy's little angel, daddy's little girl. i love bieber n 1D. that's all...
