
hwaaa..i'm back n felt so sad
oh god..my picture is seriously doesnt expressed how i felt at this moment!
well, it's almost 2 weeks of holidays n i havent studied at all..
seriously..!! i'm not in d mood of lying!
so u better believe every single thing that i wrote
hwaa... i'm kinda regretted..
sometimes..i dont feel like taking spm for this year..
my aim..my goal..can i make it come true??
well..i know i took them for granted..
but why??
today's preparation determine tomorrow's achievement rite?
oh god..when will i wake up??!!
ahhhhhhh...i hate myself.
u know wut..? i've been thinking this for several times
u may call me crazy but i'd rather die than facing spm exam..
huuuuuuu..........
can someone wake me up??!!
i hate myself!
i hate being 17!
i hate spm!!
ohh..i really hate it all
jun..oh my lee jun, hehe!

oh yeah, talkin bout june,
i'd like to wish happy birthday to the trio gemini..
which are...
who called herself as wanie powerpuff
rindu kt aku x? ngahaha
dun worry..bilik mung 1st class lonih..
meh meh kapal titanic pecoh..
biaselaah..aku mewarisi mung jgok kehh..
ngahaha!
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and..the last person is..
my lil cousin..alia!
haha..
happy 1st birthday alia!!
and..
happy birthday to all the geminis!!
oh...before i forgot, i just wanna informed u guys dat i'm getting addicted to marshanda..the indonesian actress..thanks to my lil sister who send d'virus
just now, i watched her videos when she's in her uncontrolled mind after broke off with few guys
it's really embarrassing but..in dat videos..gosh!
she looked stunning!
rambutnya cantik benor eventhough it's lil bit blonde!!
so..it kinda put me in dilemma, should i cut my hair short since global warning is d'main reason..
or should i just keep my hair n make them grow longer..then, i can cut n dye it after i reach 17..
hurrmmm??!!!
think! think!
but.. i kinda look weird with short hair which i had last year..and the hair stylist also said short hair doesnt match my face..but god! the weather is really killing me!!
ohh..let me just think about it for thousand times so that i wont regret..
humm,till then..daaa!
heading off to kl 2morrow..byeeeeee..

oh yeah...after dat
i know..in this heavenly mid year break..i should really enjoy every moment of it..
and..i really missed my old self..
but, something came to my mind these past few days..
and..it took myself into a deep thought..
i dont know how to expressed it in this blog and i've never said this thing to anyone else, including my mom!
but one thing for sure..i just felt that i might become a useless kid and turned out unlike what my parents expect me to be..
ahh..it really hurt my heart when i'm thinking of this thing..
oh god..i'll do anything to make them smile, but i dont know why..
why cant i changed myself?
why cant i became just a lil bit workaholic?
there's a quote saying moving slowly is better than stood still..
and i tried to move but at the same time,i found myself numb.

oh god..now what should i do?
should i just changed myself?
or should i get to my old self?
ahh..i better stop here before tears started to fall down