Anddddddd....
While most of my friends are on their way home...or had already reached home...or are on their bed at home
Here i am.....!!
Counting the days...the hours and minutes like theres nothing else to do.

Well actually i did do something
For example listening to the fireworks from my room.
Watching movies while my roomate is making coffee n ready to hit the book.
(Seriously dude, it's holiday!! Pfft)
Being lazy on the bed...make some mess in room...
Then find some time to clean em...and now is making mess again..
What a lifeeeee u got there WOW!


Well the thing is..
My parents are coming here tomorrow..
So until then...
Lets get malas as malas can be.
Lets not study..
And lets partayyy all the time!!
Screw the test that i got next week coz today i aint gonna make love with the books

I hate the fact that i still care.
I hate it when i still look.
Hate that i still feel.
I hate the fact that saying is easier than doing.

I guess thats pretty much what life is about huh?

When i said theres no place like home...
I mean...theres ABSOLUTELY NO place like home.

And it's monday.
Everyone else is having lectures...ppd sesion..monday blues or whatsoever that i dont even care of.
And here i am..
Spending my sinful monday on my own bed.
Still at my home..
Reluctant to go bck to sg buloh..hurghhh

In fact i havet bought the ticket yet..
Wehehooooo....

Life is. GREATTTTT!!!

So yeah..
I'm up all night..
Just to gettin lucky.

Wuteva happens tomorrow...
Just leave it to the Almighty.

Dear self,

Stop fooling around
Stop overthink of things u shouldnt
Stop wasting your hormones or feelings or even your precious time and whateva shit u're doing.
Stop procrastinating your homeworks.
Stop...just stop everything that turns u away from studying.


Take your seat...love your study place...
Focus on everything u need to understand n memorize
Shut down whateva gadgets u got around u...
And please...
Please prepare for the cns test..
I've said this thing thousands of times...but hell yeah whateva, im gonna say it again since u're still absurbly lazy
Nothing...nothingg worth having comes easy!!

Love,
Yourself.

 Countdown..
Few more days to cns test part 2, which i havent prepared that much
Few more days to go home...hoyeah!
2 more weeks to the next sem break...( come quick! I've alrdy bought the ticket home)
A month ++ towards final exam...

And so far..
I've been absurbly lazy to the point one cant even think of.
What a life u got there..

But as they said,
"The time u enjoy wasting isnt a wasted time"

And in my case..going out with my sisters is sucha great escape i'm willing to leave everything else behind.



So now...
Enough of the fun part..
Lets get fully motivated..highly caffeinated..and work your ass off.
Aite flamingo?

I know i've promised my sister to study up till dawn tonight since we're going out tomorrow...and same goes for saturday and sunday.
Which means... aint nobody got time to study for next week's test, well especially me.
Pffftt..
so dear self, dont even dream to make love with the bed tonight....
And since it's only  3am or smthing...lets take it lightly and talk about what i've done during this week.
Well since it's kinda an atypical week..guess i should've update it right at this moment before dementia hits me..
Oh btw i've been reading the notes of dementia just now..so do mind i'm quite paranoid bout it....whatevs.
So...
Soooo...okay here it goes.

Since it's a maulidur rasul week n i've found myself not really serious when it comes to religion, i figured...why not now?
Why not...take it serious, maybe it's time?
And it's hard, indeed very hard to fully immerse myself and try to understand n feel the love and be the kind of person he, Rasulullah saw would want us to be.
In fact, i got jealous with people who actually cry the moment they tell qisas Al-Anbiya and how they missed him.
Wish i could feel the same thing they did.

Well..just keep on taking the baby steps, u cant expect yourself to run when they fact is u're still crawling aite?
So, lets have the pictures do the talking.


A discussion with regards to our Prophet Muhammad on monday.
A concert by saujana just now that cost me 10 bucks and worth more than what i paid.


Something borrowed.
Something taken while waiting for the selawat.
Someone who decided to wear baju kurung instead of jubah when the fact is it was a jubah day.
But overall...something worth keeping in my permanent memory storage.

 And this chair spinning thing that occurred this afternoon to examine the nystagmus left me breatheless for laughing out too hard.
It was damn funny...damn absurb...and damn great!


And being the girl who stayed awake during the lecture today while sitting on the last row makes me feel more than a hero!
I survivedddd!!! And they didnt...muahaha.
That felt good...damn good i tell u.

And lastly...
Who said u need your flowy wedding dress, tiara on the head, a bouquet of white roses, a breath-taking beach view and your prince continously  smiling at u in order to ride a white horse?
Heckk!
Just give the horseman rm5, put on your lazy shirt n pants, hop on the horse....and there u have it.
Jalan2 tak sampai 2minit pn jadilaaaaa....

Dear self,

Be different.
Always ask yourself WHAT differentiates between u and them.

Keep on the fight..
For nothing worth having comes easy.

Remember the quote in Frozen?
"Conceal...dont feel, be the good girl u've always have to be"
Live with that..and you wont be hurt.

Make your days worth living for.
Coz u only live once.., errr i mean in this world.
Xoxo...
Love your life.

I've been missing my parents like crazyyyyy

Then suddenly theres this lecturer talking about parents...and how vulnerable they are to dementia
Well of course he should've said that...it was a session covering a dementia topic afterall.
And he told us a story about his friend (or patient? I cant recall..) whose mom sufferred from dementia n cant even recognize her own daughter and after that he played this song by sheila majid-di mana kan ku cari ganti.
I seriously was about to cry at that very moment coz that song has got a deep deep meaning that kinda stab your heart over n over again but u're still breathing.
Well that hurts...a lottttt!
So i immediately went to 4shared n download the song n make it as my song of the day.
In fact i'm listening to it right now n feeling like emptying my lacrimal ducts right at this moment but it would've been soooo weird if my roomate see it, wouldnt it?

So back to parents..
I really reallly reallyyyy miss them that i cant even hear their voice on d phone coz chances are, i'll ended bursting up in tears
God it just feel so weird...
Everyone seemed so happy, dont them miss their parents too?
Erghhhh..
Maybe i shouldve just sleep  n be ready for tomorrow's maulid.

When a friend of mine asked me "have u ever felt so unmotivated coz u havent studied a thing?"
I was like "ALWAYS MY FRIEND, ALWAYSSSS!! LIKE EVERYDAY...."
Then she replied..."owhh...i hate that feeling coz i'm having it today.."

Seriouslyyyy???
U dont have it for like....every single effin day???
Whats wrong with u??
Wait..
Or maybe, whats wrong with me?

God what have i done today?
Yesterday?
And my everyday?
Nothing!!
Nothing besides sleeping...eating...shopping..walking laughing going out and regretting.
No wait..i dont regret.
Oh shit..whatever.

Dear self...stop foolin around will u?
Oh by the way...i ve been very busy enjoying myself with my sister and have been a bad mother so far and  my plant aka my baby....failed to survive.
Rest in peace lil cuties..

Dear blog,

How awkward it is that it's already 2014
But i feel nothing...
I mean not exactly nothing but the feeling isnt there..
I still feel like it's 2013..
How time flies...


Well it has been a week of january...and so far i've been enjoying myself more than i should've.
New year celebration was quite a good opening for my next 365days of excitement and drama and stresses and pressure and what not.

And i want to remember my new year's eve where i was scared with the crowds at klcc coz i was there alone, window shopped while waiting for my sister to finish her works and suddenly there was like a tsunami of people attacking the mall ready to hit the new year's concert.
I seriously have no idea there was a concert there.... pfftt should've read the newspaper earlier.
And during the night time...we only went jalan2 wasting our time at jusco coz kl was too dangerous at that time with "turun-thing", concerts and what not.
Went to bed early that night and was too lazy to get up & see the fireworks, so we just listen to 'em with eyes half opened.
What a celebration u got there!!

And what i love about my new year is my 1st 2014 movie.. the 47 ronins.
It was really really greattttt...
Well im not a fan of keanu reeves, my sister is.
But that movie..is so unpredictable.
The love...is so pure.
The sacrifices....is beyond amazing.
The ending...is one of a kind.
The actresses...are so beautiful!!!
And the most important is...it's about samurai and fighting and bla3 which i was suprised with myself coz i think i've fallen for that movie.
So...i'm not really a disney girl after all...or twilight or harry potter or those typical love stories.
Note to self: next time, dont blindly judge any action movies.


So i guess thats it.
Happy new year...
Lets make it better than the last year eventhough my pocket money is now shrinking i just wanna cry
Lets turn 21 gracefully n crazily
Lets dream big..think big n achieve big this year!

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