en route to graduation #1
i guess i'll be frequently updating my life about this en route to graduation and life as a final year medical student.
it wont be a long post i promised...
just something to keep for and to read for in the future..
so today...is the third day of life.
still breathing...
still surviving..
still a bit regretting of how pemalas i am and banyaaaak sgt things that i dont know.
cried a little just now when i called my mother..
so today i went to the hospital..
clerk a case or two..
did physical examination on the patient who complained of painless breast lump over a year..
in a desperation neeeed of polishing my examination skills etc etc..
i even help the boys to get the consent of doing the same examination
it's nothing much pon really...
tapi when they came up to me saying of how terharu they were with my action..i was like "awww it's nothing much pon u guys.."
i mean..yeah u need to help people, A LOT! coz the feeling of being appreciated with what u've done is like...like a intravenous injection of endorphin which driving u euphoric if that makes sense at all..
lps tu in the afternoon we have this seminar on upper gastrointestinal malignancy of which i found myself feeling inferior to my colleagues presenting the topics..
i mean..they are all so bijak i tell you, i feel as if i'm just a speckle of dust ~ ~ ~
lps tu i went home and cooked pasta coz i'm just supperrr lazy to drive and buy food outside..besides, tak sedap sgt pon the outside food.
i think...i think lahh, cook by urself lagi appropriate, pocket friendly, healthier, and not to forget *cough* more sedaaap bahahaha...
so..apart from that, i wanna make tonight be worth it
i igt i wanna study and revised and recall and whatever u call it really...as long as the knowledge is transferred from the books straight to my amygdala get it?
dah byk mlm dah plan to study hardcore mcm ni
we shall see if it really happens tonight..
so i guess thats all i wanna bebel for today
dear self, i love u and i care for u.
road to graduation
dear self..and dear final year..
this is something i want u to remember
tak mintak banyak pun
cuma
- study rajin2...u dont have much time left. 10 months tu kejaaaap je. especially when u're gonna be busy with all the crazy schedule, busy crying, busy sleeping and busy regretting as to why u chose medicine at the first place. but u shouldnt be regret...it's too late really. u're almost at the finishing line...and i can already see the medal. keep going...keep running
- solat jangaaaan tinggal. kalau blh solat awal2 waktu...tak elok u let Him wait for you berjam jam pastu baru nk solat especially u're asking for his biggggg help for this final year kan. it's not gonna be easy lets admit it...but it's not impossible too. let's change for a better self.
- doa banyak banyak banyak banyak. do i neeeeed to stress it more? usaha tetap usaha tapi kalau Allah xredha...whats the point of burning the midnight oil...sacrificing your youth when u can choose to go out with friends...try something crazy, something a normal 23 year old lady would do.
- always pesan to maaaa and abah to pray for my success. tak pesan pon dah tahu actually, that they always pray for me. tapi nak pesan jugak...coz i'm so gedik liddat.
- jaga hati. jaga iman. dont fall inlove too easily. lower down your gaze. i know it's difficult tapi thats the thing about it. i know it's gonna be hard tp kita cuba slowly alright?
so dear self...
please remember this.
i'm not asking for many things.
ni pun dah ckup dah for the time being.
xoxo
yourself
been a while
it's been a while since i last wrote a post in this blog
life has been quite a challenging ride these past few months.
- i encountered my 4th year final exams of medical school with some bits of knowledge and practices and lots lots lots of prayers and hoping for miracles. i was totally unprepared...
- then i spend few days with my friends acknowledging the beauty of nature...had some hikes..and some jog, capturing some beautiful pictures and had my favourite sneakers gone into the dustbin after the hike..errmm so yeah
- i passed all of my exams - surgery, orthopeadics and family medicine. Alhamdulillah...luck must be by my side at that moment.
- and currently or specifically this monday shall i enter the college as a final year medical student of which it felt a little in the middle of being happy and proud and blessed and estatic for this achievement but at the same time still questioning my knowledge and the skills that i owned, sad that it also means i dont have much time left with my girlfriends, angry for being unprepared all the time and frustrated with myself the fact that i cant always make my parents proud of me.
- next year shall i face the professional exams which qualifies me to get my MBBS..and it aint a joke anymore.
despite all of that..i still choose to be happy and content and blessed with all the memories i had this year with my colleagues.
i dont have much ideas left...hence i'll just let the pictures do the talk..
just a girl named mimie yahaya. i'm not good at describing myself...trust me. i can be a very antisocial person but i can be loud too, when i'm with the person i love. will turn 19 soon..and i wish i can always be mommy's little angel, daddy's little girl. i love bieber n 1D. that's all...
