When your breath and urine smells like coffee
And you tie up your hair as high as possible
And the clothes that're supposed to be washed 3 days ago are still nowhere near the washing machine.
And you feel like dissecting your own brain and wash em and put em back
And all those sleepless nights makes u look pretty much like a cannibal
But hellyeah...u never mind of it.

Coz hey...u only have one chance.
One chance to make it worth the pain...
And the chance is THERE!
Right in front of u...
So tie your shoes tightly...
Get yourself fully ready for the game
And be the winner.

Goodluck dearself.
Professional exam...please be good to me.

Anything for u.
Just..anything.
As long as this body is still breathing...i wont give up.
I'll try my very best  & my very hard for both of u...

Dear body,

You may feel tired along the journey.
You may blamed & asked yourself.."what am i doing here?"
You may have all the "what if..." thoughts running crazily inside your head
You may be feeling down when u're expecting yourself to be up.
And the list goes endlessly...

But hey...those days are coming, and they will passed.
Remember what they always say... " even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise."
It's not gonna be the end of your life...
Well it is...if u failed the exam.
But, alas...
There's still some time for u....go fix it, make the time gold.
Goodluck dearself...may  He ease everything and answers to your prayer.

10 days left for the professional exam 1.
and i'm nowhere near a normal human being..

Sometimes...u cant expect life to be happy and nice and all the beautiful things.
Sometimes...it has to be bitter and scary and miserable as well.
Not all the time...just, sometimes.
Afterall...this is what we call bittersweet life.

So the thing was...several events has hit my life recently that made me think very deeply of what life is all about...the unexpected and the uninvited.
That i cant always win...and life is very very fragile, and short.


1.A very kind friend of mine just passed away yesterday due to cardiac arrest after she had been in an accident last week on her way to the airport to catch her flight back to Malaysia. Yes..only 21years old and has already been called upon The Creator. But...with a very kind heart that she had, i'm sure she's now in a much happier place. Al fatihah to Ummi.


2. My roomate had an accident this evening and her car was in a bad, very very bad condition. But hers? Alhamdulillah she's fine...safe and sound. What a miracle...

Ok thats all for today.
Lets be positive with life..

My oh my.
I'll be leaving this house few hours from now.
And it sucks.
Heshh..tak puas lgi nak mengada ngada.

But look..
Maybe it's a good thing, since i havent really studied that hard while i was at home.
I've had 12hours (or moreee ) of sleeping every single day when the fact is 4 is more than enough.
I've been studying like ntah ape2 when the fact is....i've to study day & night, & again &  again &...yeah.

Ok lets not pack anything yet.
Ok lets just not go back to college.
Urghh i love being at home...
Urghhh just please dont give up.
Pro exam is not that far u know.

Those hardworking friends of mine..are staying at the college as we speak and been studying around the clock, finishing as many modules as they can.
While me?
Nahh...i'm enjoying every bits of my break right here, at home.
I know i supposedly finish one module for one night but right now....hrmphh.
Hopefully i can finish the endocrine module tonight...big hope this time yaah.
Spells: dont u even dare looking at the bed.

Wish i could have the same motivations and the energy as they were.
Mannn...it's a tough competition.
May Allah ease our journey.

Org suruh blk rumah study n prepare for the exam, the deathly one.
And what have u done so far?
Tido.
Makan.
Main.
Sepah wardrobes.
And where's the word "studying" man?
Big mistake...this is a BIG MISTAKE..
Man....
Someone better slaps me on my face,
Glue my butt on the chair.
Or just anything..
Anything that shall keep me away from the tv...the foods, the clothes
And this too....the tablet.
Damm mann...

So i go to the library whenever i feel stress
So the coffee i've made earlier for myself was no longer hot.
So the caffeine tasted kinda blerghh...* but hey, lets just agree that im good at making coffee,  peace!!
So i kinda make this as the reason why i rarely go to the library now.
But the truth is...i was lazy to walk to d library.


And when i got home last night...
My mom smiled and gave me a plastic bag with a pink thermos in it.
Damn it's freaking pink.
And it's a thermos.
And it literally speaks..."hey i'm pinkkkk, lets become bestfriend.  And now u can no longer make any excuses for not going to the library...lalala"

Wowwww...u really did suprised me maaaa.
Herghhh...now where's my nerd shirts at?

Hi friday.

Soooo...
Its friday yeahh..
Yeah its friday..

The good news is...i'm going home soon, like very very soon.
The bad news is...in order for me to go home, i've to face the..u know, progress test.
Which i didnt really prepared that much.
So yeahh...
Best of luck.
May the odds be in your favour.
And please...yeah please, focus and study your ass off for tonight.

Oh well...good morning.
Dear God, please let me have a good Friday.

They said if u wanna play...play as hard as u can.
And today is indeed a playful day.
It was the last pbl session for our preclinical year.
And frankly speaking...
I really really really loveee my pbl mates who are damn crazy, damn intelligent and damn in everything...except that they dont damned me out, damn i love them.






So yeah...sure it was the last pbl session
But thinking on the other side...
The last things arent always good aint it?
Last parasitology lab. Last microbiology lab. Last anatomy lab. And all other sorts of the last things.
And then i realised a thing..
Damn...the professional exam is almost here
How far have i prepared myself for it.
Lets just cry....yeahh, lets just do that.

Hello there sunday.

So i just called ma mère just now
And before hung up,  she's like..."dont u missed home?"
And i'm like mannnnn......are u kidding meyh?
Maaa....what kind of question is that??!
Heckk...was that even a question?

Erghhh patience Mimi, be patient!!
Less than one week left and u'll be leaving this college 1st thing after u finished answering those test which u've prepared none so far
Friday come quick...
I dont care about the test..(well for the sake of the carry marks, i do actually care)
All i care is me going home this friday..
Hoyeah bebeyhh...hoyeah..

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